Friday, August 28, 2009

Its about time~

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Hello salam everyone. Its friday again. My week has been such a gloomy week and i really really want it to end soon cos i cant take any of it anymore. Whether end it nicely or harshly, i dun care anymore.. I just want things to end ASAP..

Other than that, my life is like.... *normal*.. What else can i expect from myself these days?? Angan2 and berangan.. And life continues although i hate it real much. At this very moment, my heart is full with negative input which i wish i could kill them or put everything aside but i guess i am not strong enuff.. What else can i do?? Ape lagi... Nanges je la like a cry baby.. huhu~

Well, that stoopid arse anonymous is kind of already got the news about my current status.. Dengan laju nya beliaw masuk ketengah balik.. Mengatur langkah macam seorang malaikat.. Well, i dont know her real intention and i dont think i wanna know about it.. As for me now, everything is a lie and i dont think i could ever find the truth anymore.. Pegi jauh2 sume itu.. Huh~

Tomorrow i'll be having my break the fast at Putrajaya.. My mom plans of crashing the bazaar ramadhan over there.. Something that i am not looking forward though.. With the desease and not so stable weather.. But what the hack.. Pegi je la.. Bukan selalu pun melangkah ke sana...

Oh well, thats all for now.. I cant really thinking straight.. And i am so freaking fragile.. Cant help though~

Til my next update people..

Selamat Menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia ke 52

And have a wonderful weekend.. Its a long weekend :)

p/s: Takziah kepada keluarga sahabatku ke atas permergian makcik nya..
p/s: Ivy, hope ur dad will get better

-Rosy Daisy-

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Dimana kah logic nya??~

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Secara jujurnya aku type entry ni pada pagi ahad sebelum aku dapat berita kematian arwah.. Tapi aku kuarkan balik sebab aku rasa *tribute* untuk arwah itu lebeh penting.. So hari ni akumasuk kan balik and aku malas nak edit pape.. harap maklum..

Sekian~

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Halloo~ Another weekend and another crapping from mua. Not gonna touch on the ramadhan thingy because everyone been talking about that. Just wanna touch a little bit on the hit issue... The H1N1 desease [Yurp.. Once again.. Not making any profit though this time~]

Have u people read today's newspaper?? Berita Minggu if i am not mistaken. Tok Dat [Dr M] expressed his worriedness towards the people who take H1N1 issue easily aka sambil lewa.. Urghhh.. Seriously, i do care and i am sure that other people also are do concern.. Cume, depa tamaw pakai itu mask saja.. What ever the reason is la kan.. Malu kowt [Thats why i want those cartoons masks~.. hehe~]..

*So people, adik, abang, kakak, pakcik, makcik, atok, nenek sekalian alam.. Please put ur mask on each time you step out from your house. It brings good to no one but your own selves.. Lagi pun asap ekzos and haze sekang ngah tewok and belambak.. Its like kill 2 birds with 1 stone la kan if you ur mask on... Please war it ok.. Mask tu bape hinggit je and ur life/soul/nyawa is priceless~*

Laen la kalau nyawa korang mcm kuceng or tak pon macam Wanda dalam citer The Host tu.. [sempat lahi ku promote buku tuh~ ;p]

Next.. I have been hearing and reading all sorts of tips on how to prevent ourselves from being infected by this H1N1.. Eat green apples la, eat oranges la, drink honey la... And the latest one i heard was...
Pakai inai di kuku..
Hurmmm.. Apakah??? Where is the logic of putting inai on ur finger nails can enhance your antibody?? Been thinking about that for a week. But still... I got nothing...



Kenapa dowang tak kate letak inai kat hidung ka?? Makan inai ka??.. Lebeh logic kowt kite rasa.. But wear inai on your finger nails?? Cenggineh those people who happened to be married recently mmg confirm free from the desease la eh?? Huhu..

So, if you happen to know the significant of putting inai on your finger nails, do share it with me okie~??

p/s:Ku almost maw faint tadi.. Baru kul 9am but dah tak da sugar dalam darah.. Masalah betul.. BP mmg maintain low je.. Makan kambeng, but tak naek pon.. Maka, ku tak rasa kambeng leh cause high blood pressure~

p/s lagi: Mummy dah masak.. Bau kurma ayam memang uji ketahanan daya mental ku ketika ini.. Huhu... Astaghfirullah~ ahah~

Til my next crap..

-Rosy Daisy-

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Give me strength~

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Salam.. Selamat berpuasa.. Hari kelima umat islam berpuasa.. Aku tak dapat nak update macam biasa sebab hati aku sangat perit dan pedih.. Bulan puasa adalah satu bulan yang penuh rahmat dan sepatutnya menggembirakan.. Dan aku sangat mengharapkan bulan puasa tahun ni akan penuh dengan suasana ceria bagi diri aku setelah apa yang berlaku tahun lalu..

Tapi, mungkin memang nasib aku macam ni. Diuji kesabaran aku. Puas aku pikir di mana silap aku.. Puas aku pikir macam mana cara nya nak puas hati orang. Tapi ape aku buat sangat sia2.. Bila aku buat, aku disuruh berhenti.. Bile aku berhenti.. aku dikira membelakangkan orang.. Bila aku buat balik, aku dikira tak paham bahasa.

Aku cuba sedaya upaya aku nak puaskan hati semua pihak tapi makin lama makin aku dipersalahkan.. Dituduh buat menda yang aku tak buat.. Dan orang yang taw aku tak buat, tak cube langsung nak bela aku bahkan lagi mengiyakan tuduhan. Aku ni jahat ker? Aku kacau hidup orang ke? Aku nak cube hidup tenang.. Aku korban semua benda hanya untuk senangkan hati orang.

Hidup aku bagai dalam penjara. Walau aku tak suke pada mulanya, tapi aku redha dan terima.. Aku tak boleh keluar rumah.. Aku tak boleh guna internet. Aku tak boleh jumpa orang. Inilah rasie hidup aku yang tak ramai orang tau. Ni lah jawapan kepada soalan kenapa aku tak penah ada bile kwn2 buat reunion. Inilah juga jawapan kenapa aku privatekan blog aku.. Inilah jawapan kenapa aku asyik baca buku dan asyik tengok DVD.. Aku bukan nak mengungkit.. Aku redha.. Aku terima.. Tapi aku sangat terasa bila arahan yang aku ikut ni tak dipandang.. Ape yang aku korbankan ni tak diterima..

Saat aku sedih dan jatuh macam ni, aku tak da tempat nak mengadu..Aku tak da kawan nak luahkan perasaan.. Kawan yang nak pinjamkan bahu untuk aku menanges... Aku tak da sapa2.. Nad dan hawa sangat jauh.. Dan aku tak boleh keluar.. Dunia aku hanya bilik tidur aku dan tempat kerja.. Beza kan hidup aku dari kaca mata dunia blog yang aku tulis hampir setiap hari?? Aku sentiasa ceria bile beri comment kat blog orang.. Sama ceria bile aku ukir senyuman setiap hari di tempat kerja dan dulu masa di fac, aku sentiasa senyum dan tegur orang2 yang tegur aku.. Tapi aku dah penat hidup macam itu... Aku mahu senyum dengan ikhlas seihklas2nya.. Bukan senyum untuk sorokkan kedukaan aku. Aku dah sangat penat...

Aku rindukan hidup aku yang dulu.. Aku yang dulu sangat kuat.. Sangat tabah.. Sangat confident.. Takada apa yang boleh ;unturkan semangat aku. Dulu, semua orang nak ada kehidupan seperti aku.. Sekarang?? Semua tak nak.. Tengok keadaan aku pun orang tak sanggup..

Air mata aku sekarang sgt murah... Berguguran tanpa kire masa.. Tak mengira tempat.. Aku ingin kuat dan tabah.. Aku perlu ada rasa pentingkan diri sendri.. Tapi aku tak dibesarkan begitu.. Aku lebih suke diam kan diri.. Aku tak sanggup nak sakitkan hati orang dengan sengaja.. Aku tak mampu..

Aku perlu kuat untuk jage matuah aku.. Tak ada papa yang aku ada sekarang melaenkan maruah aku yang itu pun orang dah pijak. Keluarga aku bukan nya kaya.. Harta tak ada.. Aku bukan pandai sangat.. Kalau tak masa kan orang selalu cakap aku bodoh.. Dunia ini kejam atau aku saja yang berangan dan berharap akan ada orang terima aku seadaanya??

Nad, aku sangat penat.. AKu ucapkan terima kaseh kerana kau sanggup angkat telefon semata2 untuk dengar aku menanges.. Aku tak da apa2 lagi nad.. AKu cume ada memori.. Dan pecaya la nad, aku tak berani nak melangkah ke depan.. Aku takkan berani nak tengok dunia lagi.. Terima kasih nad..

Hawa, aku tau ko jauh dan ko tak selalu nya tau keadaan aku. Tapi aku tau ko selalu doakan yang terbaik untuk aku. Aku cume harapkan ko teruskan kirimkan doa untuk aku. Sebab aku dah jatuh dan aku tak mampu nak berdiri lagi.

This is the ultimate truth and confession i have ever made and expressed.. I cant bare anything anymore. All the hard work i worked, all the sacrifices i have made... Tak mendatangkan apa2.


p/s: Tolong doakan kesejahteraan aku.. Di sini saja tempat aku luahkan perasaan.

-Rosy Daisy-

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Arwah Norjehan Wahit [Eyann]~

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Seminggu ynag lepas mata kiri ku bergerak dan hati aku berdebar2 hingga aku tak dapat lelapkan mata.. Hampir 5 malam aku tidak dapat tidur seperti ada sesuatu yang akan terjadi tapi aku tak dapat nak mengagak.. Aku memberitahu BF ku akan perasaan ku pada 14 Ogos lalu. Beliaw hanya cakap, "doakan yang baek2 aje.. Stop thinking negatively~".. Aku yakin akan ada benda yang akan berlaku lalu ku menyatakan perasaan hatiku di ruangan *Rosy Daisy*, ayatku berbunyi "Jiwa kurang tenteram, expecting something bad to happen".. Dan Blogger Shemmi ada menegurnya di shout box aku~...

18 ogos yang lalu, aku baca blog bloggers macam biasa.. Dan mesti nya blog adik ku tidak ketinggalan untuk ku baca hinggalah pagi tadi saat sebelum telefon ku berdering.

Beliaw menulis keadaan beliaw yang tidak sehat.. Dan seperti biasa aku hanya memberi nasehat.. Telah ku tahu keadaan darah tinggnya yang sangat tinggi sejak awal perkenalan aku dengan die 9 bulan yang lalu. Kerana risaw, aku mengantar sms kepada beliaw, namun beliaw tidak reply. Ku anggap beliaw nda credit seperti biasa.. Tak pula aku teringat dan terpikir nak call beliaw secara direct.

Pagi ahad aku disentap hebat bila qila [adik ku lagi seorang] hubungi aku dalam keadaan menanges. Dan beliaw yang telah mengkhabarkan aku berita kepulangan EYANN WAHIT ke rahmahtullah. Aku jadi bisu.. Tergamam.. Sejuk terus kedua2 tapak tangan dan kaki aku. Tidak terjangka akal pemikiran aku akan kejadian ini. Seminggu lamanya persoalan berlegar2 di fikiranku dan akhirnya ini jawapan yang aku terima.

Tangisan aku tidak dapat aku hentikan. Sungguh pun kakak tak kenal eyann dalam jangka masa yang panjang, tapi eyann seorag adik yang sgt dekat dgn kakak sama seperti mana dekat nya qila dengan kakak. Kakak minta maaf sangat sebab tak dapat jumpe eyann masa eyann datang KL tempoh hari. It was your birthday pula tu.. Terasa sangat menyesal...

Sepanjang aku kenal arwah, beliaw adalah seorang yang tabah.. Ceria dan manja in her own way. Aku akan sentiasa rindukan usikan arwah.. Gurau senda arway... Sentiasa eyann dalam ingatan aku... Kite sangat sayangkan awak,eyann~ Semoga roh eyann dicucuri rahmat~

Al- Fatihah~

p/s: Click here Cerita sebenar bagaimana arwah meninggal~

p/s:: Dengan ini http://www.tobeherlilsecret.blogspot.com/ will no longer be in service. Blog arwah yang baru disetkan kepada mode private.. ini ayat arwah..


*For those who have been invited.
You are the one that i trust the most.
Kindly drop any comment if you want to.
Thanks :) *


Terasa dihargai kerana arwah invite kite masuk blog die kerana kita antara yang dia percaya~.. Terasa sgt indah persahabtam yang dijalin dengan arwah walaupon laut china selatan yang memisahkan kami..~

I will definitely gonna miss your words.. And miss your critics on movies you watched.. And of cos miss maen tukar2 layout.. Kamoo tukar, ku pon tukar... And end up, kite sama2 kering idea and kite tukar layout blog orang laen plak..

I love u sayang.. Always and forever..~ Harap kite dapat bertemu di syurga~

-Rosy Daisy-

Thursday, August 20, 2009

My Thursday~

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Hello fellas..

Its thursday,fourth day of the week.. I am a bit worn out today. Exhausted but still not knackered yet. Been running up and down the whole day. The place where i am working does not have the service that we all need, the ELEVATOR. So, being the youngest and the smallest, the tiniest and the cutest alive in the office, ku lah orang yang kena lari.. Runner of the day.. Haha~ Untung belum bulan pose, so dpt ar menogok air masak kurang manis.. If bulan pose?? Mesti gwe dah tumbang dulu.. Hahah.. Macam bebudak tak kite neh?~ [but on the bright side, ku exercise.. burn those unwanted fat~]

Hurm.. The questionnaire is finally ready.. 300 copies need to distributed within a week.. Urkkk.. Sempat ke tak?? Working during the day and cant go out during the night.. So basically i only have weekend to get 300 sets done.. Mengeluh panjang aku.. Thinking of skipping work next week for the whole week but i dont think they would let me since the office is pretty busy lately.. Susah betul jadi final year business student neh.. Stoopido~ Cemanamaw wat ehh??

Next~

I am reading The Host now. Have limited time to read, i managed to read 100 pages a day only.. Half way thru though.. Really a nice story. Strongly recommended~!!! But not as good as her fourth book [Breaking Dawn], but still this book is such an awesome book. She managed to take me into her book.. Thumbs up~!! Read it oke~!!

H1N1 desease~ Few days back, i told my mum... "If i am rich and have all the access, i surely want to sell and supply mask.. Those with cartoons and design.. Seriously, i know i can make a great profit from it because masks are highly demand product now".. She didnt say anything.. I assumed she didnt agree with me..

Yesterday's news.. "Topeng H1N1 adalah barang kawalan dan permintaan adalah sangat tinggi"... And of course the minister touched on the pricing issue.. But my idea is to create an artistic mask, simply to make people feel less ashame to put it on.. Also, to encourage small kids to wear it.. My point now is... Topeng tersebut mempunyai permintaan yang tinggi. [the point im trying to make now is, i was right about the demand when i talked about it with my mom the other day which means i can make profit!!~]... Jahat gile aku.. Time2 cemneh pon maw buat duit.. I am a business student with 6years of marketing input.. Ofcos making money is my main interest..~ :)

Oh.. Thats all for today.. I wanna shower and grab something to eat.. I already lost weights.. Puasa tak start lagi.. [That shows how torn out/worn out/depressed i currently am now~]

p/s: Have not sleep for three nights.. And i still dont know why~

Til my next update~
Selamat berpuasa kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat.. Semoga ibadat anda akan diterima.. Puasa bukan sahaja menahan lapar dan dahaga taw.. Sumer jenis nafsu kena tahan~!! And if bulan puasa pon ada yang wat menda tak senonoh, maka selama neh bukan lah setan yang *ajar* korang.. Tapi korang la yang memang *setan*.. Jeng3~ Peringatan ini khas untuk semua termasuklah yang tukang type neh~ :D

-Rosy Daisy-

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Monday fellas~

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Its midnite and i am still awake. I am freaking sleppy but my eyes do not want to corporate.. Daymn you eyes.. Huhu~

I attended the birthday celebration at my brother's crib. The boys were freaking thrilled to have the F! cake.. And me too actually.. I even booked one of the tyres.. Rebut ngan kekanak laen.. Such a bad behavior i have.. Who cares?? I wanted the tyre.. Lala~

By the way, the boys are not twins. They are brothers who happened to be born on the same date, but different years. Ajaib kan?? Hehe~ Enjoy the piccas ok..





On sunday, I went to MPH warehouse sale at PJ industrial area.. Was great to be surrounded with books. Rambang mata sampai tak taw nak beli buku apa.. Ended up, i only bought two books.. Stephenie Meyer - "The Host" and Jodi Piccoult - "Change of Heart".. English books are back into my life people.. Too tired to read malay novels.. Too flowerish.. ahah~ Btw, Stepehie Meyer is the author of Twilight Saga~





As for today [monday], i skipped work purposely. I planned for it since last friday. Rasa penat so i decided to have a rest at home and i watched a dvd, LAKEVIEW TERRACE. Sungguh menyaketkan hati movie tuh. If i happen to have a neighbor like Abel Turner, i would definitely kill him with my own hands. Psycho cop~ Emo kejap tgk cite tuh.. Same emo macam tgk citer obsess.. Adoi~



Til my nezt update people :) I need to force myself to nap now.. Its gonna be a long day tomorrow.. Huhu~


Daaa~

-Rosy Daisy-

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Weekend Comes Again~

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Salam.. Greetings~

Today is 15th, which means we have another 5 days left before the fasting month begin. A happy month for me. I always look forward for fasting month. I like Ramadhan better than Syawal.. Why?? Simply because family and relatives could gather more often.. And kalau raya, some of them kena balik the other side of the family (mertua's places).. My mom's side sume kat KL, make tentunya bila Syawal muncul, dorang akan balik belah mertua maseng2~




Second reason, ramadhan mesti busy.. During the day, mesti akan busykan diri because me want to avoid the feeling of lapar.. Call me childish, but thats what i have to go through.. I have a severe gastric.. Petang, mesti busy jamu mata kat bazaar.. I love to go to bazaar.. Not so much of buying anything.. But love to see all the people who go there.. Tak kira bangsa, agama and umur.. Semua serbu je.. Muhibbah betul :).. Ada rezki, dapat la wat jejak kaseh. Jumpe friends from school.. Masa tu la nak do some catchup thingy.. Maseng2 duk bz tukar2 phone number.. Malam raya, leh hantar sms.. Tapi takat tu je la kan.. Abes raya, sume pon lupe~ And lastly, malam.. Solat sunat tarawikh~ Kan best bulan puasa.. Busy aje.. Dari sebelum nih tak penah nya ada masa nak tonggeng2 wat solat sunat, tapi bile muncul je ramadhan terus ada masa and kudrat... Itu lah ajaibnya bulan ramadhan..

Base on my reasons and elaboration, so betul la kan, ramadhan is better than syawal and tak salah kan if i like ramadhan better~ hehe~ [secara tak langsung, ku buka keburukan sendri..ahah~]

Enuff about ramadhan.. Let me update on few things what i have done this whole week~

1- Got myself into something that really heartache since August 8, but tried to be really patient until cannot tahan already. Something that is not new to me and to my besties. She knows this since only GOD knows when and been given me advices an supports all the way. I appreciate it so much sayang.. You girls are the best and awesome~

2- Been really lazy to get my proposal done. Its done 90%.. Just needed a bit of editing here and there to make it perfect. Malas sebab, tgk orang laen tak start buat lagi and me?? Dah start kat data collection.. Questionnaires pon dah siap.. Have not make the 300copies je. Later, if u people nampak da budak chumell lagi gojes nih berkeliaran distribute survey forms kat shopping malls, jgn tak tegur plak yer.. Jawab survey kite, kite bagi RM1 or lollypop.. Heheh :)



3- Gewdick ku menghabeskan 2 biji novel.. Ahaha~ Pecah sudah rasie napa tak buat keja research.. I read the novels when ever i have the free time.. :).. Ada sedikit emo when the story line is exactly like my life.. Waahhh~ Tekanan sikit.. Tambah lagi gundah gulana huhu~



4- Changed my layout 3 times this week. I dont know why i did that.. Ada je mcm tak kena rasanya.. The layout i am currently use now is the layout i used last year.. I guess i really like this one.. I used this last year, but changed it because that anonymous TIRU~!! Saket jiwa ku time tu.. And my bestie plak siap cakap, "Minah tu macam kau la.. English dia pun dah macam kau.. Entry LOVE tuh pun sama.. And Dia pun pakai layout macam kau..".. [Kawanku bertindak jadi fire stone sekejap~ hehe~] Nak elak diri dari terbakar rentung, terus ku tukar layout~ muahahah~

5- Again for the *i-lost-count* times, i got heartache yesterday.. Damn~ My chest hurt like hell.. 5.30pm sharp, terus lari masuk dalam kreta and i cried the whole time i drove home.. As i reached home, i gathered anything and everything that i could wash.. I did the laundry, i rearranged my wardrobe and watched 2 DVDs.. Baru lega sikit~


Hurmm.. So, thats the update about me.. I never recall me typing like this before.. Haha~.. I am going my brother's crib today to celebrate the Danishs' birthday. But before that, i have to attack the Toys r Us first at OU.. To buy presents for the Danishs.. Rabak duit aku.. Huhu~

Owh, btw.. Today is the world stage at sunway.. But i cant go.. Huhu~ So, those who go.. Do tell me about it.. Ada live telecast tak nanti?? Hurmmm~

Thats all from today.. Will write some other time~

p/s: maw pi cari nasi lemak.. ku lapar babas~
p/s: damn you anonymous~!! word stealer.. labelling pon nak tiru ker?? sibuk je la~!!!!!!

-Rosy Daisy-

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Urgh~

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I am shutting everything off
I am pulling the plug off
I am building a high wall around me
And let see if anyone can climb in

This is the end of my patience
The end of my rational
The end of everything

The fun is gone
The patience has left
The mind cant think straight
The heart has failed

I am brain dead
Wallllaahhhhhhhhhhh~
TADAAAAAAA~!!


*hushhhhhh*

**Cant write in proper sentences. I am breaking apart + blended and become powder~ Serbuk rosy daisy.. Anyone interested?? *Sigh*

-rosy daisy-

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Melalak and confession~??

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Da da da da
da da da da

Da da da da da,

I dont know if i can yell any louder,
How many times have i kicked you outer here?
Or said something insulting?

Da da da da da

I can be so mean when i wanna be,
I am capable of realy anything,
I could cut you into peices,
But my heart is, broken.

Da da da da da

Please dont leave me [x2]
I always say how i dont need you
But its always gonna come right back to this
Please dont leave me

How did i become so obnoxious,
What is it with you that makes me act like this,
Ive neva been this nasty,
Cant you tell that this is just a contest,
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest,
But baby i dont mean it,
I mean it, I promise

Da da da da da

Please dont leave me [x2]
I always say how i dont need you
But its always gonna come right back to this
Please dont leave me

I forgot to say outloud,
How beautiful you really are to me,
I cant be without,
Your my perfect little punching bag,
And i need you,
Im sorry.

Da da da da
da da da da

Da da da da da

Please, please dont leave me
Baby please dont leave me (No, dont leave me)
Please dont leave me
I always say how i dont need you
But its always gonna come right back to this
Please dont leave me (No, Dont leave me)

I always say how i dont need you,
But its always gonna come right back to this,
Please dont leave me,

Please, Please dont leave me.


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I am in the process of learning what life is all about.. People always say, listen to your heart if you need some guidance in deciding something. Been trying that for years but never really get it. In fact, most of my decisions were wrongly made. I wonder why..?? Maybe i am just suck at decision making or maybe i have not received the *hidayah* yet.. *Sigh*..

Anyways, this blog of mine is sorta getting more different than when it was first created. And at certain level, i am sorta confuse with my own thoughts and life.. Haha~ Funny though.. I guess it is quite impossible for a person like me to focus on two things at one time. If i want to chase goal A, i have to leave goal B behind.. Oh damn~

Everything seems to jumble up pretty well.. Mixed everything up.. Hate it though. I am trying to grab something without even hurting anyone but i just could not do that. Situation hurts that person through me.. So in a way, i got the blame for something that i never intended to. Crap is not it... But that is what i have to go through especially now since i am finishing my studies.. Sambung belaja payah, tak sambung pun payah.. Memanjang je salah~

"Think before you decide on something.. I pray for your future day and night and of course i dont want anyone to hold you back because i never hold you back.. No one can hold my girl back".. Parents said to me~

"Go for what ever you want. Your journey is just about to begin. Do not stop before even starting it. Never waste a nano second".. Some people told me~

"If she pursues what ever she wants, she will be uncontrollable. Because she knows, she is better than everyone else. Then??".. A person told this to someone that is freaking close to me~

I want to make some people proud of me but at the same time i am trying to prevent myself from hurting some one.. In my own opinion, if u care so much for a person, u will pray nothing but the best for that person. And ull be happy if the person able to achieve his/her dreams. At least u know, u have contributed something towards his/her success even u played a tiny part thru ur prayers~

Again, i am at the cross road options. At some point, i just wanna say this to myself..*Persetankan semua orang.. Do what ever you want to do and leave the rest to fate and destiny..*

I have been thinking about this since 2 years ago.. And until today i still cant decide it.. Thats why i said i am such a lousy decision maker.. Its bugging my heart all the time because to hurt a person consciously is just really hard for me..

*Sigh*..
I need my bestfriends.. Girls..~
What have i been doing all day to distract myself from thinking?? Read, read and more read~ But still.. Cant stop thinking though.. [and the thing im writing here is only a piece from what i am going through].. And who say life is is easy??? Choyy~

Alang2 dah buat confession, so might as well i just continue with another one confession. Dont worry, it is not something like the above.. Haha~ It is just about me and how i reacted towards the new RM50 note.. :)

About 2-weeks ago, i went to the CIMB ATM machine near my crib. Nak refuel my car before i drive it to work.. Budak sekolah lagi kan, so ku tenyeh la RM50.. When the cash came out, i said out loud to myself [not so loud btw~].. "Bloody machine.. 50hinggit aku nak, die bagi aku RM1 je".. After i took the money and looked on it carefully, then only i realised.. Its a RM50 note.. Hahah~ Ku rabun or duit itu kecik.. or color duit tu yang macam RM1?.. Haha~ Anyways, the money is fine.. As long as the value is still the same~



:)

-Rosy Daisy-

**p/s: My mum asked me about AA.. Remember AA?? I was shocked to hear that question from her.. Lalala~ Nad.. What say u?? Jeng3~
All i could tell her was.. *Urm.. I dont know. All i know is, he owes me a dinner at Victoria Station. And it is not his fault for owing me that. My fault~ [Tetibe maw pegi The Club.. See if he is there.. Fave spot for golfing and swimming~..] I miss golfing.. Been months since the last time i played golf~

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Making it private again~

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*Sigh*.. So this blog is private again.
I am sorry for that..
Better private than delete is not it??
Anyways, those who are invited,
Please bear with me and do come often ok..
Hehe.. Gewdick plak daku :p

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A quick update.. Oh well.. I am still not feeling very well.. No more fever and in fact i never had it. At first i thought i had it and after checking my tempreture for several times, clearly i did not Oh Thank GOD. Just a bit of panas dalam due to lack of plain water which i already thought so btw~.. So, after ku togak berbotol2 air, i am normal as everyone else.. Right now i am just *suffering* from coughing and a bit of selseme... Which it is sooo not dangerous to anyone.. and obviously it is not contagious~

Anyways, how did i get that cough?? Hah.. There is a cerita behind it.. One fine day [about few days back], at the place where i am doing my practical now received lots of manggos.. And those kakak2 over there sebuk ngopek and they forced me to eat it.. I told them that i cannot eat it much because mango nih panas and boleh wat batok.. But no one believed me although i have tried my very best to convince them.. And they asked me to eat it and they had it with me..



Hah~!! Amek kaw.. I am not the only one who is coughing.. Those kakak2 pon sama jugak.. Haha~ But they are worst la.. Because the day after that, they all pegi bantai makan rambutan n minum tewoais berjemaah~ The whole office is coughing and my boss said, "Hey stop spreading the germs ok.. Go put some masks on.. I donwanna get sick.. Tu la.. u people eat fruits without me..".. And who is laughing now?? Definitely me~ And i said to them.. "Didnt i tell u so??~"

Thats the quick update from me~ It has been awhile since i update about my ownself right??~

**New month, new layout.. Maken kertu, lagi maw gune cute2 layout. Hehe~ Maw jadik muda maaa~ :p

Til my next entry..
Dadaaa~

-Rosy Daisy-

Friday, August 7, 2009

Berubah untuk kebaikan~

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Every earthlings have dreams and wishes that they want to accomplish either indivudually or with partners or groups.. They would pray and work hard to achieve their wishes and dreams.. Of course there is nothing wrong in chasing after your dreams and in fact chasing after what you want and your goals is a very healthy and it shows that you are a motivational person and will not accept NO as the answer.. But the problem is just, how you chase it... Methods you choose in achieving it...

*Sigh*.. Remember my old posting? Where i asked should a person change to suit others or should not you change and hoping others to accept you just the way you are? The attitudes and thinking that you portray will influence you on how you will act in achieving your goals.. Some bloggers said, "you should just be urself and should not change.. Others must accept who you are.." But there are bloggers also said, "should be urself and change where is neccessary.. And there is no harm if you change to be a better person"...

People change when their surroundings and environment change.. Their base will be the same.. It is just how she/he would react on certain things would change. Especially when he/she had experienced something bad in the past, her/his mind set will change.. He/she will start to look everything differently.

Kadang2 bila seseorang itu telah lalui sesuatu yang sangat buruk dalam hidup [macam kesabaran dia diuji dengan terlalu dasyat dr seseorg], die akan jadi lebih kuat dan keras hati. Dia akan berubah jadi *seseorang* yang laen sangat. When a person changed jadi lebeh buruk, it means that dia adalah seorang pendendam. Bila dia dendam, dia akan buat salah pada orang yang cabar kesabaran dia dulu.. As if balas balik.

But by doing *pay-back* will not fix the thing.. Will never fix ur broken heart.. In fact, it makes your heart feel even worse. All i can say here now is, if your heart is broken/hurt by anyone around u.. Please look urself in the mirror and start to think what u have done wrong.. Search where and what that can be fixed. Do not even think of getting-back-at-that-person.. It is totally worthless. Awak nak balas balik, then orang tu mara, then orang tu buat perangai balik, then awak mara... Then bilanya benda nih nak abis??

So, please.. Take a deep breath.. Heal ur self slowly.. Try to put urself together and be the bigger person.. Sabar and try to stay out from the battle.. Staying out does not mean that u r afraid or tiny.. Staying out means you are wiser.. :)

I am telling myself this.. Because i do not want to lose what i already have and i do not want to see my dreams to vanish. I have to change to fit others if that is the best step.. Ubah aja to avoid battle and sometimes, bila orang itu suruh kita berubah on certain things, maksudnya orang itu sayang kita.. Berubah jadi lebih bagus, tak salah kan.. I hope its a wise step for me~... Benda yang kita nak ubah nih tak da la teruk mana pon.. berkaitan in how i see things and how i judge things.. Apparently, all these while... Cara ku menilai benda itu salah..

Will see how things go from now on~ Wish me luck..~


-Rosy Daisy-

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Sibuk aja kamoo neh!!

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Kali Bagi Tolak Campur
Habislah geli kerana geletek
Hilanglah resah kerana biasa
Kerana telah terbiasa
Geli dan resah tidak lagi terasa

Semut di seberang lautan
Kau nampak
Bila gajah di depan mata
Kau buta

Lebih sudu dari lauk
Lebih tunjuk dari tengok
Lebih diri dari duduk
Lebih cawan dari mangkuk

Berkata-kata jangan lupa
Banyak yang bertukang di mata dan Mulut
Sedikit sahaja yang
Menukang di tangan
Bangkai gajah busuk di hutan
Hendak di tanam
Pekong di kaki sendiri dibiaskan
Busuk oh.. Kurap, kudis, nanah, kayap.. ii..

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Duduk diam tunggu dulu
Kunci mulut nanti dulu
Sebelum kau berbicara
Sebelum kau nak berkata
Cermin dulu hujung rambut
Hingga ke hujung hujung kuku kakimu

Kurangkan lada kurang pedasnya
Kurangkan rempah kurang panasnya
Kurangkan lebah kurang sengatnya
Kurangkan cakap kurang silapnya

Dan membisu takut takut
Nana tahu silap hari
Silap bulan lambat laun
Silap tahun kau menjadi

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Jangan cakap lepas
Biar pandai beralas
Ada ubi ada batas
Ada hari kami balas

Kiramu hanya bias
Cecamu cuma tempias
Hari ini kami berkias
Esok lusa kami mengganas

Jangan suka jaga tepi kain orang lain
Kain sendiri yang terlondeh
Kata dulang paku serpih
Kata orang dia yang lebih

Ada orang suka menerima
Tapi tidak suka menderma
Ada orang suka menderma
Tapi diharap dibalikkan semula

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok


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Take a deep breath and try to listen to that song. That song managed to knocked my head. Make me realise about certain things and make me to see a bigger picture.. And hopefully by looking at bigger picture, i could be a bigger person.. And able to take the right steps each time i want to decide something and say something..

But somehow, when i look at a bigger frame, people might say..*sebuk nak pk orang laen.. buang masa je pk pasal org*.. When i ignore other ppl, ppl would say this *u are not sensitive.. pk diri sendri je.. langsung tak da otak nak pk pasal org laen*.. Hishhh~ What exactly people expect me to think/see/feel?? I am not a robot and believe me i am freaking tired for trying.. Maybe i should ignore everyone and everything and only think for myself. Tapi kalau i do that, the guilt is like a mountain high... Adoyaii~

Susah betul kowt jadi orang neh.. Kalau la hidup nih macam kartoon Jepun, *If there s an after life nya life, i would choose to be a Koala Bear... Hidup ku tidur aje.. Bagus betul~* Hahah~

**kalau boleh, ku maw highlightkan words yang penting dalam lyric tu.. tapi bume nya penting.. tak leh nak highlight.. ahah~

*** itu anonymous tukar lagi link die.. she used my WORD this tym as her link.. adus.. die memang suke curik whatever is mine ke? Bingai betul~ Ishkk~


-Rosy Daisy-

Monday, August 3, 2009

Percubaan pertama~

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Hello.. I was in Shah Alam this morning for the meeting as usual. And while waiting for my turn, i went to PKNS for a while.. There was a PAMERAN BUKU.. Books sold?? Semua buku keagamaan and also novel melayu. Kawan kita suh kita balik je sebab nothing could catch my interest. But instead of going home, kita terus jalan sekejap tengok apa yang menarik. Ada satu buku ni cover dia nampak menarik but i did not buy that book because i saw the book above~ I bought that one and believe me i dont know when will i start reading that..

Buku tu bejaya menarik perhatian kita sebab cover dia.. Teringat kat cerita Ayat - ayat Cinta.. Once i picked it up, i read the back cover of the book. Memang author nak cerita tentang pengalaman pelajar Malaysia kat bumi Kaherah.. Sama seperti penulis Ayat- Ayat Cinta.. Author curi konsep tersebut tapi tukar kan sedikit pandangan pelajar dari dua negara~

Kita dah usha sikit2 buku tu, nampak macam menarek.. But i still have others books to finish first.. Inilah buku/novel melayu pertama yang kita beli.. Kita tak penah beli novel melayu sebab ayat dia.. Masya Allah terlalu berbunga.. Let me try to read this one and see how it goes~

That is all for today.. I have been updating every single day now.. Haha~

p/s: Finie dah selamat melaherkan anak lelakinya pada 29july09... Muhammad Faris Ahmad Fuad.. [aku dari sehari ke sehari nak inform tapi lupe..gambar baby ada dalam phone~]
p/s: I am having my fever now.. Hopefully it is just a normal fever.. Sakit gila tekak nih~

-Rosy Daisy-

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Am i against Marriage~??

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The marriage part.

I am reaching the appropriate age for marriage [owh well, at least thats what people around me kept on telling me].. And its kind of scares me in a way hearing people keep on asking me about it and also keep on informing me about ths girl is getting married, and that girl's wedding is just around the corner and stuffs. Oh dear LORD, i am okey getting those information and by all means, i am so thrilled and happy for them.. BUT please do not expect to hear the big day's news from me.. It wont happen for another 3 to 4 years.. Capiche?~

Anyways, after reading few blogs mentioning about marriages, i was called to touch on the subject as well. *Sigh*.. I am no expert about this matter or what so ever and plus marriage is far from reality for me. But, i just want to share my point of views~

1- People, with all respect.. please stop asking/questioning when is our big day.. Because its kindda annoying and it puts us under pressure in a way.. Especially for those who have not start their working lives yet.. Simpati la sikit.. Boleh bah??~

2- Parents.. We all respect u in so many ways and we as children, we know that u people always want the best for us. But by being waaaaaaayyyyy to choosy is not helping tho. Let us make our own choices and even the choices we made is a mistake, let us learn to live with it.. Just try to be supportive and pray for us to have a bright future..

3- Relatives and friends... Why cant u guys be supportive and try to respect our decisions? Stop being prejudice and way too judgemental. You are making our lives even worse than it already is. Advices are welcome.. But trash talk?? Oh gosh.. Save it to urselves ok~ We dont need it.. Not now and not ever~..

Haha~ Thats all i could think of. But those are just my views.. What do i know about marriages and relationships stuffs??~ I am no expert and the relationship im currently in pon baru je.. But what i do know is, everyone needs some endless and sincere supports from their family and close friends. If u feel like we are making any mistake in any way, a slow talk and advice would be much appreciated..~

Jangan la create another scene like Ibu Mertuaku and also Antara Dua Darjat.. Because money cannot and will not able to buy happiness.. But, jangan la pula beriya2 nak kawen, tapi berhutang piutang.. Nanti anak dah masuk 3 orang, hutang tak langsai lagi~

Maka, you only get married when you are fully prepared.. In terms of mental and also bank account.. Hehe~

Akhir kata..

Majulah kawen demi meramaikan umat Muhammad SAW~

**Word from not so a wise girl, protect ur love.. Love ur partner while he/she is still there.. Let them noe that u love them.. U dun have to tell them every 5mins.. once a day or once a week, is good enuff~

Btw, i watched this movie just now..



Anoher reason for me to blog about love and marriage.. A good movie to watch.. It tells us what makes a man be a playboy..~ Something that i have witnessed on my own.. Very true.. Very true~ A playboy needs to be smacked down really hard and harsh before he could be fully awake.. And thats what happened to Connor Mead..~

-Rosy Daisy-

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Dont have to be someone that you are not~

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I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

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Can you be someone that you are not?

Well, in real life you just got to pretend to be some one else just to satisfy others or to make a good impression so that people around you will like and adore you. Owh~ That is trully sucks. Not only at certain point, you'll get tired and blow off your cover.. But you are just being hypocrite to your ownself.

You have to be extra hardworking when you are at your school/uni/work just to prove to others that you are someone.. You have to be extra cheerful in front of your friends and colleagues just to prove that you are more popular or *mesra alam*.. You have to be extra modest and *lemah lembut* in front of your bf/gf's family just to prove that you are the best for their son/daughter.. You have to be extra spoilt or *manja* with your partner, just to make he/she feels appreciated or to make sure he/she will not find others.

But.. One thing i notice.. You cannot act smart [or by all means, that you are SMART~] in front of anyone because people tend to knock you down because they are jealous with your capability or they might feel threatened. Especially if your boss is a HE..and of course with your Boyfriends or husbands.. Somehow guys are afraid if their GFs or wives are smarter or making more money than they are.. Takut tak boleh take in-charge and takut dilabel *makan duit bini* or *takut bini* or *kena queen control*.. Hey guys, we women know how to respect you [if you are our spouses].. As long as you know how to respect us~

Seriously, i am not going to lie. I hardly be myself in front of others. It is just so hard to be yourself when we are dealing with lots of people that have different characters.. We always have to fit others~

"Orang selalu berubah untuk menyesuaikan diri dengan orang lain.. Kalau A berubah untuk buat B rasa selesa, and B juga berubah untuk buat A rasa selesa.. Maka tiada seorang pun yang sebenarnya jadi riri sendiri"

So, do we actually have to pretend to be someone that we are not if at the end, every character that ever portrayed by everyone was just a lie??~

Hurmmm... At some point now, i am somewhat confused with my own writings.. haha~ Bottom line is, blogging is the only way for me to be myself.. I write what i want to write and most readers never met me in person.. So, kalau ada yang marah dengan apa kita tulis pon, kita tak kisah.. Sebab kita tak tau.. Hahah~

-Rosy Daisy-

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