::I hate to be the last!!::

Friday, April 30, 2010

About minutes ago i found out a news. A news that i should have known since days ago but no one told me about it. It was suppose to be a good one.. Well it was.. A great one in fact. But maybe the way i found out about it was not the way i expected.. So i got a bit frustrated. Should i or should not i feel that way?? If i blab it out or tell the world about it, i am 100% positive sure that world would vote *SHOULD NOT*.. Haizz...~

World would never understand how i feel.. I need help i think.. I need a portion, something like that.. I am trying to forget things or at least try to pretend like nothing ever happened, but UNFORTUNATELY i cant.. Or maybe i refuse to.. Either way or either what, i think i really need to let it go.. Seriously!!

I wonder why its always me be the last person who move on?? Why cant i move on when everybody does??

Wish i can speak out whats on my mind.. Wish i can let out all the questions in my head.. Wish i can confront the person i hv been dying to confront.. Not exactly confront, its more like MEET.. SEE.. COMMUNICATE.. Things like those.. But hey, what rights do i have?? Nothing... Zero!!



::Do U Know???::

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Do u know that i still care about u??
Do u know that i am still holding on to my words??
Do u know that i wonder how things are for u??
Do u know that i wonder how ur life is without me around??
Do u know that i am different when u are not around??
Do u know that i pray for u every now and then??
Do u know that i still say good night and good morning as if u are still around??
Do u know that i miss talking & laughing with u... or at u??
Do u know that i miss listening to ur blabs and stories about things??
Do u know that i miss looking at ur smiling face??
Do u know that things are VERY different now because we both sort of let it to.. Or maybe u hope it will be that way.. Or maybe its me who assume that u would let it be that way...

Whatever it is, its me.. I am still me.. I am still here.. I am still hoping nothing but the best..

And not to forget, I miss u real much~

::La Sunday::

Monday, April 26, 2010

Hey blog.. It has been a very tiring week and today concluded it all. My friend got married last friday night but i was not able to attend it so i attended her reception today at Shah Alam Gallery.. Met friends from my diploma class and everything went pretty well. Went there abit late due to other commitments and did not stay there long enough for photos.. Tapi sempatlah tanya2 khabar friends who came..

I went there with dice.. Well the bride and groom were his schoolmates and the bride was my diploma friend.. And the funny part is, the caterer who in-charged for the reception belongs to my ex-bf (sorta).. Lucky me he was not there.. But his friend was.. So he said this, *If zeolord knew u r coming, sure dia datang gak..* And i just smiled and walked away. Hahah.. Later of the day, zeolord messaged me.. Hahah~

After the wedding, we spent most of the day at home with family & relatives.. More photo snapping took place.. I can proudly say, i am getting better in snapping pictures.. Whoaaaa :O

And guess what, after almost 2 weks, my house is finally ready :) Yeay~!!

Tomorrow is a new day, a new weekend.. I am going to my previous office cos they requested me to.. So yeah, i am going there to assist them on something.. I was there too last friday.. Things went well but i hope it will flow even better for me.. And for those who already knew, i am starting something new now.. Will inform u ppl either directly or not.. Just wish me luck and hope 2010 will be a fruitful year for me..

p/s: For more pictures, do visit my FB account :)


::I need a social life::

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Staying at home everyday.. And out every night.. Do what i have to do.. Wondering about things.. Think on how to gather cash pronto because i am soooo OUT of cash now. Long story.. VERY long story and depressing too. Cant spill it out because i have to protect certain things because i really dont want to create issues but SERIOUSLY i am under pressure. Thank GOD i have family who is helpful and live in a crowd that is so understanding thou i keep on denying the fact whenever im in front of them. Too ego i think :p..

Just finished reading Patricia Cornwell's book.. I have another one but the book is curenlty with the other half. This is my first esperience reading Cornwell's book.. And me loike it.. Thinking of getting her collections but maybe after i buy Sheldon's books.. [dlm sengkek pun nak gak beli buku :p]

And current reading now is a book written by Mr Stephen Frey.. Baru 40 pages and its fine.. Too early to compliment or to condemn him.. hikhikhik.. But i hope i would the book.. Tryied to find his other collection but did not find any.. Not too famous in Malaysia kowt..

Other than reading, i dont do much.. Except for movies + my physical activities.. Other than that, i am just a lazy chick at home and because of them, i gained few kilos.. I repeat, few KILOS.. ahahahah~ Lagi menambahkan depressed yow~ Hahahah :D

Well thats my update.. And guess what?? I still have not begin my essay yet.. Gile pemalas aku ni.. Tetibe terasa to continue my master is not really a wise decision.. Mahu ke tempat tersebut terima saya sebagai pelaja jika mereka tahu saya ni pemalas sebenarnya?? Uhuk~

Til my next update..

Bubbye world~



Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Before i went to bed last night, i made a promise to myself that i will start typing my autobiographical essay first thing in the morning after i wake up. Now, after almost 4hours of being awake, i still have not start typing my essay, instead im typing this blog.. heheh~

As most people have known, i am in the process of applying a place for my MBA. I have the scholarship but i dont have the place to study. I wanted to apply for it last year but i had to make sure that i have a scholarship for it.. Because i cant put the burden (financial) on both of my parents anymore.. The interview session for the scholarship was real hard and did lot of cursing after i came out from the room. Nguji kesabaran yang sgt tinggi!!

So now since i already have the offer letter and aggreement, baru lah boleh apply.. And i thought the applying was easy but NO!! Its sort of complicated and melecehkan. Banyak la pula benda dia nak.. Because of all the requirement, i once again went to my previous fac and buat muka tak malu and request things from my lecturer :) And she helped me with smile on her face... Thank GOD!!

This is what she wrote in the additional comment column:
*As my ex-student, i found DaisyAllie to be a highly ambitious person. She was my best student in my classes and willing to help her classmates. She works well with others and often share knowledge with them. When given a task, she would be committed in doing it. As a student, she participated well in the class. Generally, i felt that she'll be an excellent candidate for your program.*

Awwww... I thanked her for her words.. And before i left she asked me one question, *With your brain, personality, grades and ability, why do u want to waste ur time studying here in this UNI and Malaysia when u have another scholarship for the Melbourne U??*

*Entahlah.. I have no idea why.. Will consider to go to overseas for PhD kowt*

Ummm, so she knew about the my other scholarship.. The one i did not want to take last year.. Kenapa ye saya tak maw amek?? Hurmmmm~

What should i write in my essay yer?? Ideas pls!!~


::Al-Fatihah to Arwah Achik Spin::

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Seorang lagi artis Malaysia meninggal dunia. Abdillah Murad Md. Shari, 27 atau lebih dikenali sebagai Achik Spin meninggal dunia petang semalam akibat kemalangan jalan raya di lebuh raya LEKAS..

He just hung up the phone with my cousin right before the accident. Could you just imagine how my cousin feels like at this very moment?? My cousin was in Kuala Selangor, busy handling the coming pilihan raya when arwah called him and told him about the process of their plan. Arwah was with Nana right before he left to seremban.

Me and dice were at sumwhere when we received the news thru sms from my bestie. Then we decided to ring abg tal but then i said lets call my cousin and check on him. But just like what we thought, he did not pick up the phone so we rang another cousin (a younger bro of his).. They were getting ready heading to seremban and clearly he sounded so down... Then abg tal called dice up asking him to come along but dice was in a mess.. If u were me, u could have seen dice's face. He was so sad... Dia terus temenung..

Anyway, my cousins are keep on updating dice.. Jenazah hanya akan dihantar pulang ke rumah pagi ni dan akan dikebumikan sebelum zohor. Cousins, abg tal and abg raymie checked into a hotel in seremban, sebab mereka kata kalau pulang ke KL diorang takut tak larat nak drive balik ke seremban.. Me & dice might be driving up there later..

Just sharing with everyone.. Achik and nana are currently preparing their latest duet album together and the rest of SPIN will play the music for them (feat.).. I am sure abg amy must be in shocked too..

Al-fatihah kepada arwah & semoga arwah ditempatkan bersama2 mereka yang soleh~ & Abg achik, u'll be missed.. Known u since i was 16 thou i am much closer to abg tal, but u are still i consider as a brother..~

Fo pictures: CLICK HERE


UPDATE~!! (12.45pm)

About 10.40 am, the postmotern was done at Jabatan Forensik Hospital Seremban.. Cousins were so sad. They looked at arwah for one last time before arwah dimandikan.. Around 12.20pm, arwah sampai di tempat untuk disolatkan (either his home or masjid).. Tak sempat nak tanya..

Base on story, Arwah yang memandu dan terlelap ketika memandu.. Dan arwah juga yang menyelamatkan kawannya yang turut berada dalam estima tersebut. He pulled his friend out of the car but he got killed. ALLAH lebih menyayangi arwah~

At 1.07pm,
jenazah sudah berada di tanah perkuburan.. My cousin did see him one last time.. Dan mencium jenazah.. I know how u feel abg.. Hang in there. Im sure his voice must be really fresh as he called u yesterday telling u that he wanted to see u.. Not to forget, takziah to the rest of SPIN, abg tal & abg raymie~

My cousin's status on FB:
XXXXXXXXX -On the way to tanah perkuburan...Alhamdulillah semangat aku kuat dapat tgk n cium arwah achik buat kali terakhir..suara,gurauanmu dlm kenangan bersama SPIN sampai bila2..Terima kasih atas jasa2 mu terhadap SPIN..Semoga kau tenang di sana Abdillah Murad@Achik Spin..Al-Fatihah.
3 minutes ago via Facebook for BlackBerry · Comment ·LikeUnlike

p/s: Supposedly this wed akan ada achik & nana on Jangan Tidur Lagi. The show was recorded last week.. And as until last night, a friend of mine who is working at TV3 told dice that TV3 is trying to pump out the show.. But iklan semua dah keluar.. So we'll see if they manage to pump it out..

p/s: gmbr van jenazah taken from cousin's mobile upload on his FB's account~


::The way i entertained myself::

Saturday, April 17, 2010

It was Friday yesterday and this unemployed girl went out for a movie. A planned one. This girl bought the ticket earlier, on wednesday to be exact. And obviously she did not watch the movie alone.. Thank god she has someone who loves to entertain her no matter what time and day and when.. Praise to Almighty for that.

Anyways, since early of last week i kept on watching the making of Semerah Cinta Stilleto over and over again, result.. Me been dying to watch that particular movie ever since. Hehe.. I am not so much a fan of malay movie but i am sort of adore Lisa Suriani.. She is cute and i love Siti Laila's character.. Its almost the same as Maya's character in I'm Not Single/Adamaya.. Cute :)

So i watched that malay movie on wednesday and planned to watch the other movie on the very same day but because of the timing and everything, we decided to watch it on friday... Maka itu lah yang beli tiket awal.. We watched It's Complicated. Hurmm.. A drama movie.. Familyish.. And hillarious at certain scenes.. Sampai serak2 suara ku gelak gile2 nye pasal..

The movie is about an old couple got divorced because the husband had an affair behind his wife's back. Then the ex-husband is sorta fall in love back with the ex-wife.. The ex-hubby is remarried with the girl he had an affair with so the exes are sorta of having an affair.. The ex-wife has this guilt feeling because she knows she is *the other person*.. hmmmmmmm....~

What i can conclude is, do try to learn to appreciate ur spouse/partner.. Because once u lose him/her, the possibility to get back together is VERY minimum.. But sometimes, separation or being apart is better especially when your life is better and more stable when u are alone.. Then again, do think deeply before u decide to two-time ur partner.. Because the pain/heartche is never will cured.. No matter how much time u give him/her... But, like a so called friend of mine once told me, *Percaya la pada qada' & qadar~*.. Things happen when the least u expect~

Renung2kan & Selamat Beramal :)

According to you, I’m stupid, I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right.
According to you I’m difficult,hard to please,
forever changing my mind.

I’m a mess in a dress, can’t show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him, I’m beautiful,incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him, I’m funny, irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.

Everything is opposite, I don’t feel like stopping that,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.

According to you, I’m boring, I’m moody,
and you can’t take me any place.
According to you, I suck at telling jokes
cause I always give it away.

I’m the girl with the worst attention span;
you’re the boy who puts up with that.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him, I’m beautiful, incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him, I’m funny, irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.

Everything is opposite, I don’t feel like stopping that,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
like I’m not hated. oh no
Why can’t you see me through his eyes?
It’s too bad you’re making me decide

But according to me, you’re stupid, you’re useless,
you can’t do anything right.

But according to him, I’m beautiful, incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him, I’m funny, irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.

Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you. [you, you]
According to you. [you, you]

According to you, I’m stupid, I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right

This song had been my ringtone for 2months.. haha.. Penuh makna~ But let it remains be my secret.. But since yesterday i changed it to another Orianthi's song.. Sometimes its hard for me express things thru words.. So songs do help me alot.. If ada yang faham, faham la~


♥ this song yow~

Thursday, April 15, 2010

If you are a big fan of Hallmark Channel, u must have listened to this song atleast once. OMG, trust me when i said i fell in love with this song when i heard it for the first time.. Because i like the singer.. I heard she sang celine dion's song once feat with celine dion herself. It was incredible!! Then only i listened this song.. She is very talented.. Nice vocal control!! I adore her~

Not to forget the lyric is nice too. I dedicate this song to my besties.. Girls, i miss u girls so much and i hope things will run smoothly and may GOD will always have mercy on us.. I pray and wish that our lives will be better and brighter.. I always thot that my life is tough enuff, but i guess urs are much more difficult. Just hang in there, right... u both so much~

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak what's in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away
For love to overflow.

If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
And for peace to mend this world.

I'd say, I'd say, I'd say
Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love 'cause love is overdue
And it seems like so much is goin' wrong
On this road we're on.

If I wrote a note to God
I would say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness
Put some tenderness in our hearts.

I'd say, I'd say, I'd say
Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is overdue
And it looks like we haven't got a clue.

Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
'Cause it seems like so much is goin' wrong
On this road we're on.

No, no, (no...)
We can't do it on our own
So, so...

Us... (Give us the strength to make it through)
... (Help us find love 'cause love is overdue)
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help...

(Grant us) the faith to carry on...
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
And it seems like so much is goin' wrong
On this road we're on.

No, no, (no...)
We can't do it on our own
(So, ) so...

If I wrote a note to God...

And of cos, others can enjoy the song too :)


The hobby continues~

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Since i know that ill be staying home for quite some time, i have prepared myself with materials to read. Last sunday i bought 2 books written by the author below. Crime/thriller novels.. As i read thru the synopsis, i fallen in love with the stories. She is aint stephanie meyer, but she is good.. To be honest i have not started reading her books yet.. Cos i still have the pending books (the time traveler's wife and sherlock holmes). Hahah.. Never had the time to read ler.. But finishing the traveler's wife ok!! Hahah~

Last year i onlyread about 15books.. Hope i'll read more this year..~ Read more is stated as one of my resolutions.. Tapi slow nak mampos la plak tahun ni.. But the good thing is, i managed to pull one person to read :D.. Have fun reading ok... Later, we can create or join a book club~!!

Patricia Cornwell was born on June 9, 1956, in Miami, Florida, and grew up in Montreat, North Carolina.

Following graduation from Davidson College in 1979, she began working at the Charlotte Observer, rapidly advancing from listing television programs to writing feature articles to covering the police beat. She won an investigative reporting award from the North Carolina Press Association for a series of articles on prostitution and crime in downtown Charlotte.

Her award-winning biography of Ruth Bell Graham, A Time for Remembering, was published in 1983. From 1984 to 1990 she worked as a technical writer and a computer analyst at the Office of the Chief Medical Examiner in Richmond, Virginia.

Her first crime novel, Postmortem, was published by Scribner’s in 1990. Initially rejected by seven major publishing houses, it became the first novel to win the Edgar, Creasey, Anthony, and Macavity awards as well as the French Prix du Roman d’Aventure in a single year. In Postmortem, Cornwell introduced Dr. Kay Scarpetta as the intrepid Chief Medical Examiner of the Commonwealth of Virginia. In 1999, Dr. Scarpetta herself won the Sherlock Award for best detective created by an American author.

People, do check her books out okey.. She does not have that much of collection, but if u are into crime and thriller books, then u should start to read her arts.. And never forget the great Sidney Sheldon too. He is always in my heart~!! He rocks.. May he Rest in Peace~


My last DAY~

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Good morning blog.. Today is my very last day as an employee.. I submitted my resignation letter yesterday.. No one was surprised because i already told them about me leaving the company since last tuesday.. Except for my president, he was a bit of pissed off.. Sorry abah~!! But my GM was down and we had a chat *man to man* chat [and yes i am a lady :p]

Well he asked for my opinion about things [since im leaving].. So i said few things that i have been keeping long.. He saw my point of view and agreed with me.. And he seriously asked for my consultation.. Hahah.. What is written on my name card is *I am the advisor for the product* but i guess yesterday i was the advisor for the whole department.. Lets put it this way, i used latest books and u used ancient books.. Hahah.. Anyways, i am glad that u came forward and asked me those questions.. At least ku tahu otakku tak da la karat mana..

All i can say is, call me if u need anything.. I love the company so much and i love our product real much.. A product that is too good to be true but it is true.. And i would never forget that i am the FIRST & the ONLY girl in the team in the whole world.. Other distributors in other parts of the world never hired lady in the team.. So yeah, i am glad!! With my job scope, i would seriously say that only MEN can perform.. Tough job and very emotional job!! But i made it thru and im enjoying those..

By plan, i have 2 clients to meet up in Johor tomorrow and the day after.. And i already handed them over to my GM.. He will be going off tomorrow.. And i already told him the history with these clients and i hope he will manage to take over.. And about other clients, i handed them to the sales person.. By saying this, u ppl should know by now that i am not a sales person.. But in a way, i do sales from time to time.. Im more on giving solutions, provide advices and technical.. Haha.. And i leanrt marketing for 6years kan.. Sungguh lari kan... :)& yes, ill be learning marketing for another 4-5 years more.. Hope ill be as good as other marketing Gurus some day.. :p

I seriously going to miss my work but life has to move.. Honestly speaking i have another job offer waiting for my decision either i take it or not. If i take it, i have to resign again when my semester starts.. So yeah, im on a fence.. If i take the job, ill be working with MSC but wont be base in Cyberjaya.. WIll be working somewhere in the heart of KL.. Haha.. A place that i dont really like but will see how.. The people are expecting for my answer tomorrow morning at 10am.. Going to meet them tomorrow.. Hurmmm.. Harus berfikir lagi kini~

Enough for now.. I think i typed too much already.. Enjoy the lyric/song down here.. I dedicate to people who feel like this song inspire them in any way..~

Oooooh ooooh
I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs
i never needed pain,i never needed strenght
My love for you was strong enough you should've known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything that you can say.
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me , listen to me because,

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words, i never needed hurt, i never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong
And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying ooh ooh
No more pain
No more hurt
No more tryin' Oh Oh Yeah

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

Yeah Oh
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken


Things to ponder readers~

Sunday, April 11, 2010

The Turtles..~

A turtle family decided to go on a picnic. The turtles, being naturally slow about things, took seven years to prepare for their outing. Finally the turtle family left home looking for a suitable place. During the second year of their journey they found a place ideal for them at last!

For about six months they cleaned the area, unpacked the picnic basket and completed the arrangements. Then they discovered they had forgotten the salt. A picnic without salt would be a disaster, they all agreed. After a lengthy discussion, the youngest turtle was chosen to retrieve the salt from home. Although he was the fastest of the slow moving turtles, the little turtle whined, cried and wobbled in his shell. He agreed to go on one condition: That no one would eat until he returned. The family consented and the little turtle left.

Three years passed and the little turtle had not returned. Five years... Six years... Then on the seventh year of his absence, the oldest turtle could no longer contain his hunger. He announced that he was going to eat and begun to unwrap a sandwich.

At that point the little turtle suddenly popped out from behind a tree shouting, 'See! I knew you wouldn't wait. Now I am not going to go get the salt.'

Well, we always waste our time in waiting for something or someone to happen the way we always dreamt of. Well not everything will happen just the way we hoped and planned it would be. So why should we keep on waiting....... Especially over thing that is almost crystal clear wont happen even in millon years. Things that are so impossible are not worth to wait. Do move along and pray for a better and brighter future~

The Pretty Lady..~

Once upon a time a big monk and a little monk were traveling together. They came to the bank of a river and found the bridge was damaged. They had to wade across the river. There was a pretty lady who was stuck at the damaged bridge and couldn't cross the river. The big monk offered to carry her across the river on his back. The lady accepted.

The little monk was shocked by the move of the big monk. 'How can big brother carry a lady when we are supposed to avoid all intimacy with females?' thought the little monk. But he kept quiet. The big monk carried the lady across the river and the small monk followed unhappily. When they crossed the river, the big monk let the lady down and they parted ways with her.

All along the way for several miles, the little monk was very unhappy with the act of the big monk. He was making up all kind of accusations about big monk in his head. This got him madder and madder. But he still kept quiet. And the big monk had no inclination to explain his situation.

Finally, at a rest point many hours later, the little monk could not stand it any further, he burst out angrily at the big monk. 'How can you claim yourself a devout monk, when you seize the first opportunity to touch a female, especially when she is very pretty? All your teachings to me make you a big hypocrite.'

The big monk looked surprised and said, 'I had put down the pretty lady at the river bank many hours ago, how come you are still carrying her along?'

I totally understand the passage clearly but it is just so hard for me to let go things that had hurt me so badly. I know it is so not wise of me to keep on *recapping* the history but i guess the wound is just never healed.. Still, the advice stated in there is we should always leave/forget the unpleasant event once it is over. No point of pondering and looking back especially when the person at fault is trying his/her best to meet with our expectations. The history is the baggage and forever will be on our shoulder if we never learn to love ourselves and forgive the wrongdoers~

Read and think people~

Dolly dolly doo~


Life is not easy as i thot it would be.. I mean, i thot that my life would be fine once i got everything sorted out, but it is actually is not.. Few things settled, there come another matters. I just gotta endure everything and never forget to breath. Life is so freaking unpredictable. Haizzz.. But, whatever it is.. I am lucky to have wonderful family who never condemn me for whatever decisions made by me.. Eventho most of the times i made the wrong one.. Hehe.. But hey, sometimes its good to make wrong decisions because ull get the chance to learn everything from the hard way.. And from that, ull be matured faster than those who are at the same age as u. Awesome huh?? :)


Friday, April 9, 2010

Hello blog :) I have lots of things to update and blab about but the thing is, there were too much of things had taken place until i dont really know how to summarize them up. Long story shorten, my life daily routine is full and pack til i hardly be at home. I am out most of the time. Not really spending time with anyone but more like spending time with my own self. I sort off have fun thou its really tiring :)

About work.. I love my work real much. The job scope is so me but there were ups and downs til i cried.. Hahaha.. But after i had few talks with several people, i became a bit of heartless.. Lama tak jadi hati kering ni.. Remember i wrote about me getting offers elsewhere?? I have not decide whether to accept it or not.. Still have not fill in the forms.. BUT, i am currently preparing my resignation letter.. WHY?? No particular reason.. Just feel like staying home and rest.. And will find another job that does not really require me to think at the moment.. Weird kan?? Ramai tekejut with my decision since whatever the company is paying me is something that i could never get it elsewhere.. But, i just need a space of my own.. Saya sudah penat..

I learnt alot the whole 9 months working there. Either work related or not. I met with bunch of people with various characters.. Full with dramas and everything touched my heart. By leaving this company, i decided to leave all memory behind. People i met, people i shared my life with, people who were with me, people who i thot they knew me, people who i thot they cared about me.. If i am really part of their lives, insya ALLAH kita akan bejumpa lagi.. But at this very moment, i rather to be alone because the heartache is unbearable.

Today, i did not go to the office. Just felt so tired.. Because of the moving.. We finally moved to bangsar.. I like the place so much.. English style!! Dice was with me. He helped me out.. Took me out for lunch or brought me lunch. Thanx love (mengipas gile kamu kan.. hahah~) Anyways, me went to the midvalley.. The last time i went there was like a year ago with elle and ressa before ressa went back to jakarta.. So as usual, i was abit jakun.. Hahah~!!

We did not plan to go there because initially i was suppose to go to uitm and try to settle my MASTER thingy.. (the offer letter and forms are already with me).. Tapi, tak jadi pegi.. Tu yang forms tak isi lagi :p.. Back to the story, (i was with dice, btw) we watched movie.. Hamik kamu.. Lame gile tak tgk movie. We watched DATE NIGHT.. Couples, pls do watch the movie ok.. Recommended!! Its a romantic comedy.. But thats not the whole point.. Susah to explain, but just do watch it ok..

We laughed at one scene where the couples argued about their lives.. Words they used were the exact same words me and dice used last night. Haha~ So we started to tell each other that *See, that is exactly how i feel!!*.. Hahaha~ Seriously, do watch it ok~

Thats all about me in short.. I have found the entry i mentioned in my previous entry.. Will copy and paste it later okies..


p/s: U are always a part of me.. U are my soulmate.. Cos the love i have for u, is sincere.. I love u sayang~

Breaking News~

Thursday, April 8, 2010

I miss blogging so frigging mucho.. Loike totally windu sama ini website and of cos i miss reading my bloggers' blabs.. I dont have enuff time to do those at the moment.. But guess what!! Starting from next week, i would have lots and lots of time to read and blog.. Masa tu baru hang tau betapa banyaknya masa yang ku ada..

Anyways, cant really put everything into words at the moment. Hafto get ready for my night activity.. Tiring but this is what i chose and i paid for it.. So i gotta be very commited :) Thou penat tak hengat, i am enjoying it actually.

I will write the details tomorrow.. Whats my plan and where am i heading to.. I seriously hope GOD will help me.. Pls have more mercy on me now then ever :(.. & yes, for all i know, i am letting go everything like TOTALLY! Enough said.. Let everything slip and i trust myself that i can handle this horrible nightmare once again. I have faith in myself.. Seriously, why should i ponder into the past when the future awaits for me is brigther?? Why should i stay idle when things around me are moving ahead?? Why should i believe on things when i know it wont happen??.. Hehe.. Masa ni la ku teringat entry posted by the *anonymous* on her blog.. Will copy and paste it if i manage to find the entry.. Haha.. Tetibe ku rindu sama minah sparrow tu..Yaikksss~!! (Siap pi jalan2 kat area rumah die.. Gilers aku ni rupenye :D)

Urm.. honestly speaking, my life is not happy like before... Its really obvious and even blind ppl can see it.. BUT, its more stable than ever.. And i hope the sun will shine brighter for me..

Will update tomorrow~!! <--- Its a promise.. Besties, pls do read~!! Love L

Tsunami Alert!!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Tsunami warning is out again!! There were earthquacks at Sumatra Utara!! Semua negeri pantai barat malaysia harus bersedia for the tsunami. Especially Pangkor, as its only 448km from barat daya pangkor.. So do pls be prepared and inform all ur love ones~!!

Lets pray to the ALMIGHTY that malaysia is save from the tsunami~


Formula 1~

Monday, April 5, 2010

Formula One Sepang ended yesterday. I went there to watch the race. It was great and awesome experience. One thing that i will always remember.. Me got 5 tickets for the race. 2 for paddock and 3 tickets for grand stand.. (yang grand stand tu sumpah last minute~!!) Drove to KLIA at 10pm on saturday night just to collect those tickets and i gave them to my family..~ & the fun part is, we were not alone.. Frens were there too.. Unexpected!!

Too lazy to blab.. Just enjoy the pics ok.. For more pics, u can view them at my FB :)

The Invitation Card :)

The Paddock Club~

The Dining.. Food was superb.. Italian food prepared by Italian chef~

Stefano Dominicalli - The Ferrari's Principle

Pit Walking :D

Fairuz Fauzi

Our PM

Race starts

Redbull won the race :)

The Paddock pass (left).. It costs US$6000 each~

Gift-Puma Sling Bag :)

Gift -> Cap - Thumbdrive (those in white)

Gift - Ferrari Jacket

I love all gifts and souvinirs.. Aweseome though im not a ferrari fan, but i appreciate the jacket!! Like totally~ :) Not to forget i LOVE the thumbdrive.. Leh jadi gelang.. Insya ALLAH susah nak hilang~

So, me would like to thank those companies who gave us the tickets.. Thank you Malaysia Airline Berhad for the grand stand tickets.. Every year without miss!! Special thanx to Malboro Ferrari for the opportunity given.. They spent RM32000 per head.. Amazing!! Thank you so much.. I am thankful that i was one of the lucky ppl.. But my friend was luckier.. He won a full jumpsuit and had the chance to meet and chit chat with Massa himslelf!!~

And yes, ada sapa2 nak rokok?? I got bunch of them.. Malboro sponsor the event so everyone can smoke for free.. But i think i got luckier cos i met with the event planner.. Had a quick talk with him and he supplied like lots of malboro to me.. Leh wat bisnes kedai runcit!! Gile banyak~!! And currently relatives are treating me extra nice.. hahah!~

I enjoyed my sunday after a VERY long week.. Enjoyed the VVIP treatment provided by MLounge and team.. Hope to be there again next year~



Friday, April 2, 2010

Semoga roh beliaw dicucuri rahmat
He'll be missed~


Thursday, April 1, 2010

Alhamdulillah.. Praise to GOD Almighty :)

I received letters yesterday.. Offer letters for an interview/exam for government posts. 3 posts at once. I was so excited, only GOD knows how excited i was, and in fact i was still thrill about it until 10 mins ago. My dad rang me up mins ago and told me that theres a letter for me.. Becuase its raining at my place now, the letter got a bit torn.. So he koyak everything and read it.. Guess what..?? I got another offer!! Remember i blabbed about it last year?? I got in!! Alhamdulillah~ I have offers to think over.. And i like both and both are equally good.. But definitely, ill choose the most promising one and the one that i like the most :)

Thank You ALLAH.. U challenged me everyday, i faced each one with no complaint.. And at the end, U gave me something that i have been eying for so long. U r the GREATEST and thank you for listening to my prayers.. AMIN~

Hi, i am one busy & MEAN person.. Stay away from me~

Hello blog.. I miss blabing here. I was so busy over things that i am not even sure about.. Been up and down, here and there.. So tiring :( Only GOD knows how tired i am right this second.. I am all torn and worn out.. Mind and heart and physical.. Every aspect.. Every inch of my body parts.. Whoaa~ And i received messages and comments like:

*Woi amek cuti la..*

*U dont look so well*

*Pls take care of urself.. U have been rushing here and there and not getting enuff rest and sleep*

*Alang2 L dah kat hosp, pls register urself in.. L pun dah mcm org sakit*

Thanx ppl.. Ada juga yang kesah.. Touchy giler! I am fine peeps just been VERY busy.. I repeat VERY busy.. Who ever want to see me, u have to meet me at my office cos i hardly be at home.. And really appreciate to who ever who came over to my office and brought me lunch.. Hahaha~

*sigh*.. So i started golfing again.. About couple of weeks ago, i started to go the range.. Just nearby my place. Went there and whack 200 balls non stop.. Surprisingly after a year, bola semua flow cantik eventhou i used no forgiving steel shaft.. I was amazed with my ownself.. Haha~ Not to forget, i found new activity too and it costs me RM139 per month.. Let see how long can i stay commited to that activity.. So far, im enjoying it.. :)

I am making my life busy lately. Just to keep my mind away from something that i think i should be stop thinking about.. Plus im recovering from my illness. I was sick for a week plus and im in recovering process. Not many ppl know about this.. Been taking MCs/time off quite often.. Didnt drive to office for days too.. But im getting better so pray to GOD that ill be in better shape before 4 APRIL :)


I received a message from one of the awok2. Was so bloody surprise. Not that he nvr text me.. But his sentences carried hidden meaning.. A meaning that somehow only i know about and his msg made me smile.. Tetibe ada flashback.. Haha~ Welcome back to KL dear.. U hv been gone for too long.. Urm, no offence.. Pandai Ky cari L eh.. Now i surely know that i am ur source of entertaiment.. Wakakak~

***I mish my awok2 & saing2~!!