What a slow day~

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Since i cant text him or call him due to NO coverage, i went to pyramid.. I walked into a so called gift shop and i saw this one white clock.. Immediately teringat ajie's bedroom.. Ajie just moved into a new house.. Rumah tu tak fully siap lagi.. Even his bedroom pun bau cat lagi.. The concept is black and white.. Make, i bought a white clock for him.. Sweet kan aku?? Kenapa ye? Hahah.. Sebab he gave me lots of things and treated me dinner each time we went out together.. Such a nice friend he is.. Maka tak salah kan~...

Clearly aku buhsan sekarang... Hahahahah~

Til then...

This is not a love story~

Friday, March 25, 2011

So two nights ago we had the SAME argument again. I BBM-ed and told u whatever i needed to tell you. And then Lee called and of course, i had to talk to someone. Again, perhaps i was wrong.. But hey after a little explanation and everything people said it is you who are not being clear enough. So points there is for me. While i was on the phone with Lee, you called and asked how am i doing and again u told me to wait for your return. FINE, and i did...

And last night u safely arrived KL and i was already at your office waiting. Sweet kan i? Sebab u text me every 5minutes suh wait for you because its my face that you want to see first once you reach KL.. ;p We did not talk about the matter immediately except for catching up which it made me moreeeeeeeee confuse. You expressed few things yang buat i mcm what?? what?? You attended a meeting and i hung out with your friends (it was fun and funny thou.. hahah).. After the meeting we and others hit the mamak for dinner/supper.. Pukul 1.30am tu.. On the way, hhmmmmm argue lagi.. Hishhh.. But this time we made it clear.. Crystal clear.. Confirmed.. And it wont be questioned again.

During lepak, you saw my angry face kan kan kan... And sorry, there was a silent treatment for you.. I macam upset sikit.. And of course everyone noticed.. Who did not?? After supper you fetched my cousin and all of us headed back to your office, sorry u tgh ngantuk2 pun kena buat kerja i.. Appreciate much!! And i thought after we made it clear before supper tu, everything stopped.. Tapi tak.. Sama je.. Why must you make me even more confuse with the situation?

And all this while i though women are complex and complicated, apparently i was wrong.. Men are not much different...~

Cousin's view:
"He is a workaholic. He wants u to stay and he even made it clear he wants you to be by his die.. Cume he wants to achieve all his dreams first. Die sangat ambitious and you must be full hearted to accept his job scope. Sabar kena extra banyak"

My friends who have met him:
"He is superly nice, pemalu, hardworking and very caring towards you. Jangan push because he does want you to be by his side except that between you and work, work comes first and that is something you must accept"

His friends who i always hang out with:
"He never brought anyone to meet us. He did, cume bawa hari ni, esok dah tak da.. But you, you are here always and in fact we already consider you as one of us. He cares about you, alot... Kena pandai2 la.."

Our friends:
"What?? What?? Seriously? Since when? If you guys decided to stay together, we are fine.. Cume if things happen, jangan rosakkan our friendship.. Kawan lama ni.."

Confuse kan... We are like together but we are not.. We decided to stay friends but we dont act like one.. His friends are trying to convince me that he is nice (Which i lagi lama kenal die kot.. I know he's nice). He miss me all the time and wants me near but it was him who is afraid of commitment. Dia nak, tapi dia tak nak.. Told him that i wont hanging around much, dia marah.. Seriously, dont put me on the fence with unknown status.. Demmm~

Ok, itu la dia cerita saya... Mesti banyak kali akan update cite "this is not a love a story"... Hahhahah... Lama sangat simpan dalam hati.. Confuse je...~

Kalau rase, da opinion.. Do give.. Kalau rase nak muntah, there is always a X button.. Do click, thx~

Oooo It is not easy~

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Everything is very new to me. Moved from one phase to another and another is actually not a good decision after all. Thou the old phase and the latest phase is actually something similar but when u share it with different people, the ambient and vibrant is totally different. U are expected to understand it in split second when u are still trying to figure out the whole transformation process. Demm..

So we had a minor argument yesterday which we talked about the same matter over and over again. I thought we have closed that topic days ago.. Wonder why must u brought it up? I got ur point the other night and yesterday u brought it up again and that made me confuse all over again. I guess we took the step too quick and i think we should lay back and give each other some space coz apparently im not entirely understand the *paham-paham sendri* that u are trying to tell me. Clearly being friends for nearly 6 years doesnt mean i can understand u easily.

I am just not going to BBM u, text u or call u until u reach KL end of this week. I will see you when u get back immediately or before you leave for penang next monday. If we have to face pressure at the beginning, imagine how upside down d whole thing is going to be. Perhaps you were rite, or i was rite.. Or perhaps we both were wrong.. But whatever it is, i do appreciate everything. Do come back safely ya~


Family Gathering :)

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Second post of the day~!!

Family was invited to attend a family gathering and reunion at sheraton subang.. I forgot what is the new name of the hotel. Anyway, i had fun.. Like seriously did.. Met lots of people i have never met before. Never knew i have such a huge family. Hmmm.. Sedara sebelah mamy punya ayah.. Belum combine yang laen2 lagi..

Nak jadikan cerita, i saw my eco lecturer.. Hahah.. kelakar amat.. Then a man approached my ousin and said, "Rizal, kau buat apa kat sini?? Kita sedara juga ker?" The man is my cousin's neighbor.. hahah.. Such a small world kan.. Teringat masa abg was about to marry my sis in-law.. Ngah wedding side kat JB, my aunt (mamyngah) saw her sister (my mak long).. They both were surprised.. Rupenya yurp oh yurp.. Semua ada relation.. Oh well, maka kalau nak kawen dengan orang johor (especially JB), sila la check family tree.. hehehe :))

Some of the pictures :) My tok chu is celebrating her 78th birthday. Semoga sentiasa and kuat untuk terus beribadah ye tok chu... :)

Thats a wrap~


A little update~

Last thursday me and friends went to IB for another theater and this time ajie was with me as well.. Introduction to friends gituh.. Weee~ Ajie brought two friends along, beliaw kate beliaw segan kalau pegi sorg.. Hehe.. And we survived :)

The theater was awesome, sangat tidak merugikan. Everyone should watch it. Full house taw.. Watching it with 12 others was amazing.. Sangat seronok and fun!! I did not bring my camera because i know that others would.. Fary would, then nisa was with us and she loves camera so of course she brought one..... And ape guna ada ajie n friends yg memang photographer pro :) Gambar kita besepah kat seme camera.. Yang controversy and yang tak ;p

:: me & kent ::

:: during 20mins break ::

:: heading home ::

Theater was on thursday night and me and ajie didnt communiate at all on friday.. Emo sikit aku ;p But on saturday he texted me told me that he has some event to shoot in mont kiara and so i went.. Whoaaa "dating" time die bekerja.. Awwww sweet tak? ;p 4 thn dgn dice, dice haramkan kite jejak kaki kat mana2 die shoot.. But ajie invited me..

So it was my first time to actually watch the polo match who played by gorgeos n kacak men.. Hahahah.. Siap cakap lagi kat ajie, "i rambang mata sebab seme lagi handsome dr u".. And he laughed :D After the match, he introduced me to more photogs and all of us went to a thai restaurant for dinner and for the first time ajie saw me eating rice in years ;p

During dinner, ajie received a phone call from a production house for a drama shooting and he already left this morning at 9am.. He'll be gone for a week... Alhamdulillah, maken murah rezeki beliaw... Sangat2 grateful. Cume masing2 dah *stress* sikit malam tadi.. But i have given my words to him that i would support his work and will try to be as understanding as possible. Beliaw kate "kena practice jauh2 sebab end of april i'll be going to cambodia for a shoot, then in may u'll be going to china n korea.. In june i kena pergi UK pula"... Phewwww...

So that is my life now. I moved forward and that is for sure though it is hard and not sure how it shall be. But i'll try. I won't look back as that was what i have promised to everyone. Dice was my past n i thank everyone for supporting my decision. I know, for finally leaving him would give him a huge impact, but i have to...

Thats a wrap :)

Love the month of march.. I really do.. No stress, no pressure.. Having fun to d fullest even with an unknown status.. Hahahah~


I love March.... So far :)

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Yoohooo... Hello blog.. i wonder how is everyone doing. i know that i have been sick.. hehe.. Whats new? Biasa la tu.. Daisy dengan sakit mana boleh dipisahkan ;p But not too bad thou.. Seme2 je.. Tak kronik mana pun :D

Life has been VERY normal. Finally.. After years of being paranormal. GOD finally let me live a normal life and surrounded by normal people.. I am fully blessed. I finally enjoying life to the fullest.. But seriously, never thought that normal life would be this tiring.. Haha.. Merayaw and melayan kawan2 sangat seronok.. Well i have to be there for them kan as they have been there for me when i was smashed down for the past three months.. Happy to have them around thou i ditched them before. Praise to GOD for that :)

Lama sangat kena kurung kat rumah sendiri kan, tak dapat keluar tengok dunia. Now baru nak catch up with friends, so agak jakun sikit.. The fone never shut up.. Til i have to put it on silent when ever i wanna sleep.. hahah.. No tone, no vibrate :) Over all i am happy.. Yeay..

Dice? Urm... I dont know about him and dont think i have any interest anymore.. Amek tau la tapi whatever he wants to do has nothing to do with me.. I moved on.. But if there is jodoh, yes, i would consider it.. But trust me not anytime soon.. :) Mungkin nampak saya jahat disini tapi kepada siapa yang tahu cerita sebenar akan lebih faham decision saya.. So, lets close the chapter here.. Im enjoying my single life to the fullest.. Sangat2 happy sekarang :)

Well, that is all...

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss,
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked,
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb
Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh
You’ d watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me you're a liar
Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

Daisy Allie

Rest of the pictures :)

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Since i cannot go near to the bride n groom, so this is what i did.. Dgn Pak Andam tu sekali jadi mangse ku :)

Remember i blogged about watching TKC? So this is what i've "purchased" at the end of the show and i just had it minutes ago.. Sedap.. Rase strawberry.. Hazwan, nak lagi, pls ;p Normally i would buy t-shirt if i go for things like this. But somehow for TKC, i did not buy.. Entah, tak tahu ngape..

Ok, that is all fellas :)


Bestie's Big Day 5&6 March 2011

Blog, As promised, here are some of the pics taken on the big day of my dearest best friend. Lots of photos but these are my favo. Of cos these are not perfect and beautiful. Nak lawa2 nye sile lihat collection dice ye sbb dice was the official photographer :)


The nikah session was at Ampang Mosque about 5 minutes away from the bride's house. Tok kadi nye bebel sikit punye panjang la.. Dah macam burung belatuk je maseng2.. Hehe.. I was sitting ngadap tingkap, so glare gile2, makenye i failed to capture decent photos..~



Gambar outdoor :).. Angel seme meraban sebab tak leh g dekat2 dgn pengantin sebab photographer bebayar nanti emosi :p..

So those are the pictures :)


First week of march

Sunday, March 6, 2011

I went to IB last Thursday and watched Terima Kaseh Chinta and my comment would be, it was plain and bored.. I did not like it.. I did not find it as interesting as the promo kept on saying. Was not worth it.. But i must say the stage set up was superly amazing and perfect, The man behind it was the same man who set and designed the PGL's stage.. Songs? Also were not that good.. At least to my hearing.. Entahlah.. Was "funny", cemtu la.. But the casts were amazing and friendly.. So, ok.. Points there..

Right after the theater, we all went to Pelita opposite jalan chorus hotel.. And i rang ajie and told him that i was there cos i kinda promised him that i would hang out with him after the theater.. So we did.. Memekak la sekejap pelita tu ngan suare kitorg.. Have not seem each other for two years taw.. Sila check entry march 2009, that was the last time i met him at Laundry Bar with others for dinner.. Lepas2 tu, hidup was cumalah camera and video and memang have no time for friends anymore.. I told ajie that ill be going to ampang the next day and rpomised him that ill visit his new office..

So on friday he was here in my neighborhood for some shooting and we both drove back to his office together.. Met n been introduced to his friends who all are photographers and videographers.. They were amazing, bubbly and funny.. We talked and did few things together and also watched at their work of art.. Awesome.. Sangat2 teruja.. Kiranye all his hardwork for all these years are paid off.. Congrats!! Getting MAB as his client kiranye sangat mengkagumkan~

Saturday, my bestie got married.. Nikah in the morning and berinai in the afternoon.. Dice was there as she hired her to be her photographer of the day and of cos dice and me did not talk.. The four years relationship is really over between me and him and between me and his family.. But i still love him and hoping that somehow we both could get back together.. Cos i do love him still, period.. For reasons that only i know about..~!! (will upload pics soon)

Then after the outdoor session, i went back to bestie's crib and sleep for 30mins.. Then around magrib, i drove back to ajie's studio for some piccas thingy and then me, ajie, others n uno kazen of mine hanged out together at Wedding Expo.. Had one good time.. Lepak with minimum of 20 photographers was awesome!! Dorang sgt bubly tapi bile kerja sgt garang.. Like seriously.. Sangat "WOW"!! Sebab tak penah ikut Dice kerja kan.. And plus Dice is still new in this industry kalau bandingkan ngan diorg..

So thats all.. Will update soon :)

New Month New Chapter~

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Hello blog,

We are entering the new month.. Apart from workloads yang kian menggunung, i really hope that March would treat me nice.. As usual, i have been busy lately, if fact busier. Not getting my assignments done, but studying.. Yurp2.. I still do not have the time to touch my assignments.. Owh no..

Last tuesday, i sat for OPM test and it was terribly hard. Only God knows how hard was it. I did not have enough time to check.. But Alhamdulillah i had enough time to get it done.. Then last friday, i spent my night at Stadium Malawati.. I was at Maher Zain's concert :) Pictures will be uploaded soon (As soon as i have the opportunity to~) In the meantime, below here is the picture i snapped using my BB.. It was taken a day earlier.. During his meeting fans session :)

Trust me the concert was awesome. It was supposed to end at 11pm but MZ dragged it until midnite. He finished all his songs, but he asked the crowds if they wanted to hear any song again.. End up, he sang Insya Allah english version twice, Insya Allah malay version twice, For the rest of my life twice and his latest song Freedom twice.. Hamek kau.. Fully satisfied :)

Dah enjoy tengok concert on friday night, saturday and sunday i stayed in and study for finance test on monday which it was this morning (28feb)..

Tu dia, meja jepun ku.. :) I studied alone while others studied together at Star Walk, Shah Alam.. They actually did some past sem sets.. And i did not.. I only read the lecturer's note and did some exercises from the text book.. I was too panic to peek the past sems.. Tak boleh.. Sangat emo nanti saya.. Thou that, i was able to ans the test this morning.. Saya rasa lah..

Got my result for MIS last thursday and i was in top 3.. Woohooo.. Sangat membanggakan ok when u scored really high for something that u know that u are not good at.. Computer is not my favo thing of all. I studied MIS in my diploma, degree and now too and still i never liked the subject but somehow i always got an A for that subject.. Alhamdulillah... (Not complaining ok ;p)

After the finance test, i was supposed to meet Mr. Z for lunch as he just came back last saturday.. Dia on the way nak fetch me up sekali his boss called him.. He had to go to port klang.. So friends took me out for lunch and then they dropped me at PKNS as i had to renew my passport.. So the passport is renewed.. Where am i heading to?? tunggu Matta fair in 2 weeks :D

::Top left - I was in the elevator at SJMC visited nena.. Zirafah leher kontot tu saya punya, iza bought that for me as a gift sebab she bought the bear for nena.. Dia kata kena adil, dua2 kawan mesti dpt sama2 :p.. I named the new soft toy as JEBAT :)

::Top right - Picture of me having lunch at La Bodega with my bestie, nadiah.. On 11 feb~

::Bottom pic - Latest pic of me at JM Bariani House lunch today with friends :)

So, that is all..

I miss lots of people, only God knows.. I know i should let them go.. Wish i could, wish it is that easy.. But it is not.. Still crying.. Still hoping for sun to shine.. Wherever they are, i hope that they are doing fine.. Though i may say that i dont care, trust me... I do.. So much...

Take care people :)


p/s: This is my current always sing song. Its actually an old song.. About a year plus i think.. Dulu dah lupe, but recently duk la terngiang2.. Sampai tak leh focus jawab test ;p

Jalan raya terlampau sunyi
Untuk ku terus bermimpi
Mataku belum mengantuk lagi
Bawa ke mana sahaja ku pergi
Tunjukkan ku bulan gerhana
Tiada siapa nak ku jumpa
Pendirian tiada ku sangka ada
Tak mengapa oh tak mengapa

Malam semalam gundah gulana
Hari ini hari mulia
Tak pernah daku rasa begini
Seperti mati hidup kembali
Bawakan ku hilang dari ingatan
Hari ini sehingga esok
Tak pernah daku rasa begini
Seperti mati hidup kembali

Angkasa penuh dengan berlian
Ku capai sebelah tangan
Sebalik awan ada cahaya
Bercahayalah selamanya
Daku tertawa seorang diri
Darah yang mengalir terhenti
Fikiranku melayang-layang
Tiada siapa yang perasan