Sunday, October 26, 2014

Hey blog.

I bought a house last year ago and the house insya Allah will be ready somewhere next february and that news is not a secret. To move into a new a house it requires me a fortune. To pay for the name to be transferred, cleaning the house, move all furniture from my current house and cash for new fixture and the list can go on and on..

I kind of ready and prepared myself for that. What i am not ready for is, for some of the items to be broken.. Why now? Dugaan sungguh. 2 weeks ago hubs and i spent nearly rm8000 to fix both of our cars. Ni microwave plak buat drama. Amboi~

I know microwave is not that freaking expensive but just can't really tolerate with the fact that the item decided to kaput at this while while money is crucial. Blerghhh.. Tak kelakar ok, microwave... Tak kelakar..~

Enough about the microwave..

So anyway, my weekend went quite boring but was not slow. It went pretty fast actually. Did my laundry yg menimbun semalam, and kinda main masak2 and finished everything, read few chaps of that Judas book (ye belum habis lagi) and played games.. Didn't fall asleep today which it was awesome considering i was fasting earlier. Hebat~

That's all for today. Another long week ahead with dinner and more tests coming up. Take care blog..


Just because i love him..~

Saturday, October 25, 2014

We have been together for nearly 3yrs. We made a vow to love each other unconditionally and we promised not to mention the life we had before we met. But that doesn't mean we don't know what had happened before.

Before i accepted your love, we had discussed the past. And that was the first and the last time we had ever spoke about it. We had flaws and those flaws were actually the key to our love. After 3 yrs, i still have tears or should i be frank, i still cry my lungs out everytime i have to say goodbye and not knowing whether we will meet again or not..

For the past 3 yrs, we have gone through so many joyful things and events. I am indeed thankful for the blessed GOD has given me. HE gave me a perfect significant other who would always be there for me regardless, who would always making sure that i am ok & fine even not the way i expect it to be done (he's not a sweet talker or jiwang2 so don't bother to dream of being treated like a princess 😄😄😄 ), and he will always make sure all my dreams will come true and i will achieve all my ambitions & wishes.. He won't stop me from achieving my dreams. I am thankful and just love him the way he is.

Speaking of he is not a jiwang husband, trust me i am ok with that. A husband that is base on logical & rational thinking is far more beneficial. I had bfs who were too jiwang that the end he flirts around, a bf who just love me way too much til he controlled me way too much which it leaded me to be a rebellious. Hence, to have a husband who would always monitor me closely and let me be a wee bit independent, is just exactly what i need.

Ok moving on... Relate back to the title of this post, husband of mine  will always take me to places that i always have in mind of going. He drove me and take me here and there. Took me to wonderful places on my birthday. Showered me with perfect presents on my birthday. Utk our 1st anniversary, technically i didn't get him anything and so did he. Because we both were in Mecca at that time and that same goes to his birthday because it falls on the same date.. Yes, anniversary and his birthday dua-dua on 2nd Feb. I treated him a birthday dinner after we got back from Mecca and he treated me anniversary before we left for Mecca. And that was it..

Since he has been very nice and awesome, i decided to treat him a vacation on our 2nd anniversary. Consider the gift as his wedding anniversary gift and birthday gift. Innitially wanted to go elsewhere in Summer 2015 sbb masa tu seperti lebih stable considering i might be starting my program in March and nak masuk rumah somewhere in Feb and it is gonna be freezing cold at that,particular place, and celebrating anniversary in June just so not right, so yeah... End of January it is.. Just in time for the double celebration and the place that i am taking him will be in the perfect weather.

Anyway, i have bought the return flight tickets and he is really happy. He is so excited.. Nothing grand and not even a western country.. Not even out from our continent.. In fact, i have been to that place before. But since i love that place and i believe the scenary and environment is just so right for the occasion, that was the reason why i chose that place. Nevermind, i will take him to my ultimate favourite place soon..

Traveled with him quite often but it was always his gifts to me.. This time, i just want to pay for everything which i already did. Just need to get our visa done.. So sayang... This is my little gift on your/our day.. I hope u love it and let's create another new memory together.. I am not a jiwang wife as well, but i do know that i love u so much. Fell in love with u after you managed to convince me and love u even more after i am officially urs.

You are indeed the greatest thing that has happened and still happening in my life. May Allah bestowe us with keberkatan and endless happiness.. I am grateful that u are mine and i jope this marriage will last til jannah... 💏💑💏💑💏💑💏💑


A quiet weekend it shall be..~

Friday, October 24, 2014

Hello blog..

5 years ago i decided to take this path and clearly understood how the future may brings. 3 years after graduated, here i am living away from parents, siblings, dearest husband and the rest. Left out for almost everything and tired almist everytime. Physically, i look fine but mentally? It drains day by day. Just could not understand how the other cope with this kind of life.

Family suggested me to take vitamins. But knowing myself, i know it is gonna be a waste. Just like my garlic now. I suppose to take it 3times a dat but of course i skip it.. I am guilty but i don't feel the guilt. Teghok!!

I don't really miss home because to me, my melaka crib is my home and i am perfectly comfortable here. Honestly speaking i don't miss kl.. I just miss being near to my significant other. I just don't know how many years should endure this. I trade life for free education. Partially it is worth it but on the other hand, it could be a mistake.

I wish he could join me here but i just could not let my parents and his be unattended. Not dia jadi macam nurse but at least i know i have ears and eyes to keep me posted.

Anyway, good night... It has been a very tough day~

Til my next update..~

There are things you should keep it to urself..~

Hallu blog. It is reaching 1 am and i am still wide awake. Been promising myself not to consume any coffee after 4pm but i failed to keep that today. I had to work til 10.30pm and i was very sleepy around 7ish so i just had to fix a mug of coffee then. Result? Very much awake and *lost*..

Since i am awake.. Just decided to write something here with the intention of telling myself not to brag or pukul canang about things that can be considered as 18sx to public. Maigodddd... I mean like seriously, apa kau buat dalam kain please just let it be between u and ur partner. Come on...

I have this one friend. Looking at her u would have a very positive perception towards her like seriously she has that kind of package. But u surely will regret for having that kind of thot the moment she opens her mouth telling u about blablabla... Seriously no kidding..

Been listening to those sort of things for the past 2yrs and i think i had enough. So at times (recently) when she was about to start talking about it, i just had to ask her to shut up.. I mean, annoyed listening to it day in day out it's one thing.. But have to feel geli and all that's another thing.. Last but not least, she made me feel sorry (or geli or super geli) when i meet her hubs in any function. Sumpah kau jatuhkan air muka hubs kau wehy...

Fuhhhh... Trust me, i am not the only one who feel uncomfy but same goes to the rest. I wish someone out there would inject some sense into her head. Telling details is one thing... Cakap tak serupa bikin is another story.. Oh well, whatever it is... I just hope... I really hope that i won't be like her.. Air muka suami kena jaga cik kak oiii...

Til my next post~


Be a little bit empathy..~

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Hello dearest blog.

For the past few weeks, i was an ass. I meant i had all the negative perception towards one of my senior colleagues. I meant i knew her quite well before then i started to accept her for who she is. I did.. Honestly. But as time goes by, with many events taken place, with too many things happened along the way, i started to forget few things about her. She's old enough to be my mother and it was so wrong for me to ignore her and her request and such. Nevertheless, to be honest i didn't do it on purpose. Partially she made me to behave the way i did because she tends to ignore my existence when she knew she should have included me and ask me before any decision is made. Since she always left me out of the whole thing, i decided to take my own path and that was how i started to ignore her.

Anyway, i had a long talk with her earlier. We talked about her mostly and from the conversation, i started to gain back my sense. Not sure i should be thankful or i should take it as "a new burden is coming".. ahahah... Well i should be positive kan.. Makanya oh yes, i will start to change my perception towards her and the whole thing. Will try to understand what she had went through and what she is currently going through. I do hope that this whole thing can mature me a bit more.. And i hope i can be a better person, be a better organizer and be a better advisor.

On top, i am thankful for the "eye opener" and glad that HE leaded me to where HE has destined for me.

Til my next update.


Weekend 18oct2014

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Hello dearest blog.

Happy to get back here in KL. Reached KL yesterday around 6pm plus. The whole journey from terengganu to kl was smooth and fine except it rained almost the whole time. But hubs was a good... WRONG, He was a great driver. Thank you for driving me to KT and back to KL syg. Appreciate it much!! Very <3 p="">

Back to KT's story. I won a bronze medal eventhough i did not place any hope. Rezeki ALLAH nak beri. It was my effort and i am thankful that HE grant me with this small and mini recognition. Sangat beruntung atas keberkatan ini. Syukur. So here is a pic of me and the award.. (poyoness)

So that's me with the certificate and also the medal. Hehe.. I look very short thanx to the photog who are very tall.. The husband of mine. Up to this point, at this very moment i still could not believe that i've actually won something. Considering the innovation i made was very simple and some sort of easy. But since they recognized my work, I feel very happy and motivated to think of something new for next year. Hehe..

Right after the event, hubs treated me simple seafood dinner. Hehe.. I skipped lunch just for this tau tau.. Hubs said i have a small tummy so i can't really a lot at a time or have heavy food more than one time. Some may call me cacat but i consider myself special.. Hehe.. Out of topic... Anyway, the food was nice and great. Would love to dine here again.

On top, Terengganu trip was very short but memorable because i had my hubs with me all the time. He actually followed me to work.. Haha..

Til my next update =)

Hello Terengganu~

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Hello dear blog.

Been neglecting u quite sometime didn't i. Just would like update my latest event in life.. Currently i am in terengganu attending a conference here. So far everything is well and fine. Done my part but have to wait til the end. Blerghhh.. anyhow, i am not putting any hope. The judges were quite stern and were not friendly. I mean, they didn't want to hear the whole explanation. Oh well, tak apelah.. The reason why i am here is just to fulfill my own task not so much of wanting to win.. here a picture~

Til my next update. Take care blog!!

New Reading..~

Thursday, October 2, 2014

My last post was dated on September 22, 2014 about wanted to finish that Barbara book. I did finish that book on that day; yeayyyyy... So i started to grab a new book.. New means never been read before but actually i bought that book back in 2011.. I bought too many books in 2011 and 2012 more that i should had.

Anyway, the current book i am reading now is The JUDAS.. Yurp, still reading.. Yurp i am a slow reader nowadays.. Not by choice.. I have too many things in hands.. Tak tekejar dah.. The book is about 500 pages thick and to be honest i just spend 4 hours of reading and managed to read abput 100pages je.. Dah almost weeks and just 100pages.. Yurp it sucks.. But i really have no time to read. Though i promise myself to read more.. Anywhow... Here is the synopsis of the book;

The Judas

Four people can keep a secret… if three of them are dead.
In Rome, the severed hand of a retired MI6 head of station is found at one of the city’s landmarks. The hand is holding a bag containing thirty silver pieces.
Meanwhile, in London, MI6 agent Paul Aston is on the point of quitting. Once on the MI6 fast track, his career has stalled. He has been passed over for one promotion too many; his colleagues treat him like a leper. When he is approached to head up a new task force, he jumps at the chance. His first mission is to investigate the Rome murder.
When one of MI6’s directors dies suddenly, Aston realises there is more going on than meets the eye. The death looks like a heart attack, but it’s not. As Aston digs deeper he uncovers a conspiracy that dates back to the dying days of the USSR. Someone wants this kept secret. Someone with everything to lose if the truth gets out.
But who is The Judas?

Praise for The Judas

"Agent Paul Aston thought he'd be flying high in MI6 by now – after he brought down his bent boss and was almost killed in the process. He fears he's been forced out but his bosses have plans for him – he's off to Rome where a severed hand has been found and this is just the first of several grisly murders. Soon he is dealing with a serial killer with a twist. Jackson does it again with another page-turner." – The Sun
"Fast-paced." – The Mirror
"Following on from his first successful Paul Aston book,The Mentor, Steve Jackson has crafted an intriguing tale.There are many good elements to The Judas: the main characters are engaging. Paul Aston is a likeable hero, the setting and dramas that play out in the story are intriguing, and the spycraft included in the tale adds interest to the story."

"Steve Jackson's follow up to The Mentor is a fast-paced and thrilling read. He portrays Paul Aston and the team of agents tasked with unravelling the conspiracy as fallible human beings rather than James Bond style super beings loaded down with gadgets and firing off cheesy one liners at every opportunity and roots his plot in a believably deadly world of terrorists, organised crime and assassins recruited from the murkier depths of the internet; a place where the line between friends and enemies is blurred and the only truth is that you should trust nobody. After years in the doldrums the British spy thriller is finally starting to look like an exciting genre again, leading the charge is Steve Jackson, a writer at the very top of his game, from whom if he continues to combine gripping narratives with the skilful characterisation shown in The Judas something truly remarkable can be expected in the near future."

"Political thriller running on the popularity of Spooks – very good." – Gateway Monthly

Sangat copy and paste but who cares.. I am just sharing and not taking any credits. Alas here is my review (base on my first 100 pages).. So far i like the book.. I mean the author managed to capture my attention as i reached the 2nd chapter (and the first chapter was not that long).. So yeah, he did not wait to lock the readers so i would say i like Mr Jackson's writing style. 

Eventhough i am so busy with i-just-dont-know-how-to-explain-about-my-work, a promis is a promise and i have the intention of keeping it..

Moving on.. Eidul Adha is just days away which it means one thing.. I finally get to go back to KL after so long. On 6oct, hubs and i are gonna enjoy our very first theatre together. At last, i succeed in convincing him to come with me. I really do hope that he will enjoy it as much as i do. Then on 8th oct, i have my phd interview. I was really motivated when i submitted my application about a month ago.. But after this whole semester started 3 weeks ago, i kinda lost the momentum. So to attend the interview next week is just too much. Nevertheless, i cant back out.. I wanted this before so i need to find the spirit again..

I will be in kl from 3rd oct until 13oct morning. Have many things planned out for the whole week with hubs.. Heheh.. On 15th, hubs and i are driving to KT. He is accompanying me to my innovation competition there. I hope everything that GOD has planned ahead for us will run smoothly. HE gives me all these because HE knows i am capable to handle. So i really hope i wont disappoint HIM, my parents and family..

Til my next update..