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Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Hello dearest blog,

As usual, i have been very busy. No.. Nope about finishing my research PhD thesis but more on entertaining family from both sides.. In-laws were here in Melaka for the long weekend. SO it was really hectic. Pre-during-post activity like cleaning the house-entertaining-more house cleaning. Boy it was a tiring weekend. Then the following weekend which it was this recently, i was in KL. Did not do much activity just me spending tinme with hub and my family lepaking at home and dine out as to celebrate parents' 46th wedding anniversary. I assume i already had my breaks for too long. Hence, i decided to start back on writing my thesis. 

Just finished making corrections for two papers of mine that will be published soon, InsyaAllah.. And so, i believe this is the perfect timing for me to restart in finishing my chapter 3. Then with or without guidance from my supervisor, i will start on my chapter 5. I am behind schedule which this is not me. I don't usually be this lazy... I really don't know what is happening to me..

Furthermore, i have not been reading my books/novels. I should start that one too. A way of stopping wasting too much of my time in playing games on my phone. Which that activity does not really bring much benefits to me. With that being said, below is the book that i am about to start reading. Bought this book ages ago.. But u know me.. Finish one book and buy 20 more. And read the new one and neglect the old one :)).. 



Below here is the synopsis of the book.. I need this kind of book at the moment.. Relax and light..

Amber Salpone doesn't mean to keep ending up in bed with her friend Greg Walterson, but she can't help herself. And every time it 'just happens' their secret affair moves closer to being a real relationship, which is a big problem when he's a womaniser and she's a commitment-phobe.


While Amber struggles to accept her new feelings for Greg, she also realises that her closeness to Jen, her best friend, is slipping away and the two of them are becoming virtual strangers. Slowly but surely, as the stark truths of all their lives are revealed, Amber has to confront the fact that chocolate can't cure everything and sometimes running away isn't an option . . .

The Chocolate Run is a delectable tale of lust, love and chocolate.
Who needs love when you've got chocolate?


Til my next update,
DA

Harry Potter..~

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

Hey there blog..

Remember my last post? I went to Phuket last week for a conference? Do you know that the post conference just requires as much work as before the conference take place? Well it depends on certain situation and or unforeseen circumstances. Last night when i was about to sleep, an emailed received. It mentioned that i needed to do a bit of adjustments to the paper i presented last week to meet with the publication requirement. 


Promised myself that i will get it done today. But of course with too many things on my mind... With 3 papers to adjust and amend, i just decided to delay everything a bit. Thought of watching Harry Potter for many days even before i went to Phuket. Started with the 3rd one 2 weeks ago, turned on the 4th one last night but decided to sleep while it was still on.. 


About 15 minutes ago, i just finished watching the 4th one, that would be the one with the cup.. And currently i am listening ("watching") the 5th one; the half blood prince while typing this entry. Bebetul aku nak amek mood to start writing. I need to inform Dr Ramesh about me can't get the chapter in book done. I think the journal publications are far more important. 1 is due on 4th dec and another one is due on 15th dec. So i am just gonna get those two done first and ONLY if i have time then only i will start doing the chapter in book.

Anyhow, i wonder why there are no these kind of movies these days.. I miss watching movies like Harry Potter, Inkheart, Narnia, Twilight.. Fantasy, non-logic-yet-somehow-it-makes-sense movies. I miss these sort of relax movies. These are the kind of movies that you can watch again and again without feeling bored. So yeah, I really hope they will make more movies like such.. There must be books that they can adapt. 

Til my next updates..

ps: I might watch the balance of HP later *wink*

DA

My Phuket 2017~

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Hello blog..
I was in Phuket for 3 days or so. I attended a conference and took the opportunity to walk at the Patong Beach for a day. Beach has not really be my favourite. Even if i wanna do some water activity, that would be some kind of snorkeling (kot). The conference was ok. The night i got there was a bit challenging and Alhamdulillah i was not alone. Husband was around. He helped me through out the night. I could not be happier that he was around.

Incomar 2017

Me with Dr Rozita

Halal lunch set prepared for us by Marina Kitchen Halal
Attending the conference, enjoyed yummy lunch and slept for 2 hours was practically how i spent my first day. We stayed at Boat Lagoon Resorts that is 17km away from Patong beach. Away from common tourists' attractions. But i was ok with it because we were just next to Kampung Melayu. Meaning to say, halal food was easy to find. As for dinner, i had orange juice while others enjoyed some roasted duck rice and tomyam noodle.

This roasted duck rice was yummy
We had simple breakfast in our room. We bought some butter and bread and milk when we were out for dinner the night before. After breakfast, hubs and i went to Patong beach just to kill time by listening to some people preach crap hoping we would buy from them. As token of appreciation, they gave us 5000 baht for meal or spa. We spent every dime on food. Lunch by ourselves and dinner with fixo and her mate. We ordered the most expensive meal we can find on the menu, 1480 baht along with drinks and some cream pasta.

Seafood combo
After our late lunch, we walked from beach to the Patong town. Along the way, we bought some souvenirs for people back home. And went to the mall and waited for izza and nada for dinner. While waiting, we ordered some drinks. Trust me, the graan tea frappe there was the bomb. around 7pm only they reached the coffee shop. Just in time for dinner. 

Izza's meal; lime baramundi

Nada's meal; caramel banana and cinnamon pancake

Mine; salsa nachos

My dessert; mocha something.. cake and ice creams

My dinner mates

After dinner, we continue on walking as friends wanted to buy some souvenirs. and after that, we headed back to our hotel and checked the next day. That was how i spent my days in Phuket. Don't think i wanna go there again. But definitely will fly to Bangkok soon as i bought a 3d2n room in Anantara Riverside Resort.


Til my next update..~

DA

I Am Bless To Have A Wonderful Friend..~

Friday, November 17, 2017

Hey dearest blog..

After finishing blogging yesterday, i finally made my move back to home from KAG. The whole time i was driving, i was on phone with my friend. A friend that i recently got close with. He was my degree and master senior but i never bumped into him. But he told me that he saw me once in Sepang circuit and of course at the faculty. But he refused to say hi and he regretted.

Anyhow, when he was in NZ for his PhD, we started to communicate through messenger. Perhaps because both of us are in the same path so he needed my help and vice versa. In November 2015 he came for data collection and that was the first time i met him. Finally met him.. Been hearing his name for years and he is in my fb list since 2009 but sumpah never thought of finding this person and such.. 

So, we have been friends for 2 years now and he is one of the good friends that anyone could ask for and colleagues seconded it. I felt bad back then as most of my friends know him and i didn't. People kept on saying how smart he is. Well, that proves how reserve and could-not-be-bothered i am. 

Anyways, we were discussing about PALAM and future projects. Told him about several things and was asking for his opinions on certain things since he already graduated and used the same analysis software as i am.. So his points are matter to me. Long story shorten, he pointed something that no one ever did. I meant, i am aware the situation but i never mentioned it to anyone except to my husband.. Which of course, as husband is my walking and living journal though he needs to be reminded from time to time (Rolling eyes).. 

Back to story, the friend of mine pointed out how unhappy i am being here in Melaka. He had the idea just by looking at my ig post; both timeline and story. Boy, he is such an observant. I am happy to be where my home is. Meaning my house because that is where i can feel comfortable. But in terms of friends, my KL friends are definitely the best. I had so many options and i chose the best. Here in Melaka, i only have work friends. Which by the way, the choices are so limited and to actually have people that have similar interest, using the same "language", have common views as mine are so difficult to find.

I only found a few. Sadly, one of them i am not so close with hence, i only talk to her whenever i bumped into her. The other had transferred to Raub and the last one is busy handling her life as she has too many responsibilities on her shoulder. Those i am kinda close with are no longer close ever since i started my study leave. Practically, i have no one here in Melaka. Sedih kan? 

Although that, i am grateful to have great friends who understand my situation. Even they are miles away and we don't communicate all the time yet whenever we do, i can just tell them anything and joke around. I am bless to have them, i do. These people i am so proud to call them my best friends. They are the reason why i can feel like i am normal too. 

Well, because of the situation i have here in Melaka, that what makes me want to move back to kl and i really hope Melaka would let me go and PALAM would accept me. I don't know how to make it happen. Previously, there was no vacant in PALAM. Now, when there is, Melaka is not letting anyone go. Bummer..

I am praying and hoping that one fine day, i can just go back to KL. And husband finally agreed to find a new house for us to buy in KL/Shah Alam. A home of our own in KL is actually another i need too.. I will share the story why here when i have the time..

Til then, just wait for my next update..

DA

How Much Would You Sacrifice..?~

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Hello blog..

I am a part time postgrad student and currently in my third year. For 2 and 1/2 years i endured life with multiple roles; a wife who needs to cook and takes care of the husband, a daughter that requires me to care and travel back and forth to visit and see the parents, a DIL that tries to be fair and treat the inlaws equally, a lecturer that requires my mind and most of my time, and a student that have due dates for everything.

Being in shoes along with uncountable hats and hearts to satisfy, life was kind of difficult. Because of that, i applied to take a study leave which i thought it would help or at least ease my study journey. I seriously thought with this study leave i can complete my report writing with less distractions.

Boy, i was wrong and completely naive. The leaves actually gave me extra responsibilities. For some reason people whom i thought would understand my situation are kind of misused my leave. People expect me to always be in KL when i prefer to be in Melaka. People expect me to always attend all occasions when i sincerely cannot. 

During writing process. you need to be left alone. You need your space to draft your words and trying to put everything in good paragraphs. I can't go back to KL frequently because it affects my writing momentum and i definitely do not want anyone to come to Melaka at this crucial time. When they do, i need to spare my time for them.

Back and forth requires so much of my time and incur lot of cost. The traveling cost and food cost (huhu).. Because i kind of have my own sort of meals due to my gastritis and my meal time does not match with any of them. 

Alas... To make others happy i am willing to sacrifice. But, i am uncertain for how much long i am willing to do that.. As far as i am concern, my main priority would be getting my report done.

May Allah ease everything for me and grants me with his endless blessing.

Til my next update,

DA

Meeting An Old Friend...~

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Hey blog,

Meeting an old friend after years of not seeing each other can be an awkward moment for anyone, right? Unless you are a bubbly person and really know what kind of topics to talk about, then you would not have any problem. But referring to my previous post. I did mention that i am quite a reserve person. Hence, meeting someone after years of not is actually a problem for me. I was there sitting quietly not knowing what to ask and what to say... 

******

I was out today to OU to get some stuffs and it happened that on of my friends text me saying that he is in the same building too. So, we met and talked to update each other. The last time we met was back in January 2012, about two weeks before i moved to Melaka.

Meeting him was kind of a thing i looked forward to.. At first.. The two of us were very close and practically nothing was in between of us. But after so long of not lepak together, and after both have gotten married, things are quite different. Perhaps we respect the boundaries.. Perhaps because we do not usually share the same thoughts anymore.. Hence, to talk and bergurau like we used was impossible. 

In the back of my mind, i was curious "bila dia nak balik??". Gratefully his friend called and wanted to see him. His friend was in the building too. Never thought i would be happy.. Years ago, saying goodbye to him was the hardest thing to do. But just now, the feeling was like winning a lottery.. 

Well, it is not like i do not like his company.. It is just us taking separate path in all angles. Lifestyle, mindset, goals, carreer.. Just everything. We no longer have things in common so that was the reason why we can't talk the way we used to, especially after have not seen each other for nearly six years.. In the past, usually the gap was just two years. Meaning, every 2 years, me and him will get together and lepak and update for almost everything.

But the gesture was good and i should appreciate that. Til, out next meeting Ajie.. Perhaps another 6 years?

Take care... Thanks for always remembering me. Thanks telling me that you won't forget me.. Feels good knowing that i have a good friend whom always remember me in the prayers and for that reason, i will cherish the friendship and whatever-ship we had throughout my life.

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How do people handle the situation? I just wonder how reserve people like me handle moments like such. I honestly do not have any intention of making any situation to be weird or awkward.. But unfortunately, that is just who i am today. The cheeky and friendly Daisy is just no longer exist. Perhaps it is because of the age factor. I was 6 years younger back then. Borak and be friendly with people are quite normal for young people.. Hahah.. I hate this aging factor... It took away my personality and it definitely slowing down my metabolism.. Hahah...

Til my next update :)

DA

Are You A Reserve Person Like Me..?~

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Hey blog..

People who are close to me would realise that i am not that easy to be closed to. I consider myself a reserve person. You may think that i am loud and bubbly but the actual fact is, i can only truly be myself if i am surrounded by people whom i am comfortable with. Which that leads to another question... "Who are the people??".

I do not easily be comfortable with anyone. It is hard for me to be open up and talk about myself. You may think that you know me when you actually do not. I just have a problem of socialising. I can talk and have a conversation with strangers like at a conference or wedding, but not to people i know but not close with. The awkwardness is high as a mountain. The ice i froze around me is just so frozen and thick to the extend it is impossible to break.

But if let say, you finally manage to break the ice, you can actually see my true behaviour. I talk quite a lot. I have many things to share. I have many stories to tell. I kind of love to share what i have experienced, or seen, or read, or heard. I seldom talk about people (gossip), perhaps that is one of my major weaknesses.

From my point of view, people usually start their conversation or mingle with others when they know what had happened to other people. So they can easily share the "stories" with other. Jadi mak jemah and cik kepoh in a way. But that is the thing..because of the wall i built, the ice i froze, i just don't know what is happening around me. Dalam bentuk gossip la. But i do know if anyonw kena musibbah or sick or facing any sort of problems. 

Maybe that is what we call, me being empathy and care rather than being kepochi? Good thing about me is, i usually able to get things done on time. I don't have severe procrastinate problem. I have less distractions. But the drawbacks are, i do not have lot of friends. People find me a bit boring or perhaps, they might consider me as sombong.. 

Because of me being too quiet, and have less friends to hang out with... I spend most of my time alone and at times i don't even have friends to go out with (when the usual people i eat with have classes or meeting or errands).. I ended up eating alone at home or kena masuk kedai yang tak ada orang which that leads to my second world problem.

I kind of shy and anxious to eat alone in a restaurant. I have feelings that people might say that i have a big appetite that i can't wait for others to eat, or they might say that i have a very pathetic life because i have no friends (perhaps in a way, that is true.. haha). So whenever  text my hubs to tell him that i am eating alone in whatever restaurant, his respond would be "Kedai tu tak ada orang eh??".. He knows me too well :")

I always wish that i would able to break the ice. I would able to talk to people normally.. But seriously, i just don't know when will i have the ability to. But, i am grateful that i have friends who are really supportive and understand me too well. Although the number of friends i have tu sangat sejemput, but at least i have someone to count on when i need ears to listen to my problem.

Til my next post..

Ps: Please change Daisy..

Urs truly,
DA
 
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